I wonder if she knows that I do NOT care if she gets in trouble for talking to me or not and that her getting in trouble won't effect me at all...I curse this habit of following orders.

In boot camp I had two dreams come to me(that weren't nightmares), each that has had some sort of subliminal meaning behind them that I have yet to fully decode ( Read more... )

I'm back from bootcamp, i've been an offical U.S. Marine since Thursday. I recieved the right and earned my eagle globe and anchor on Thursday the 3rd, I graduated Friday,and just came back to illinois today. I loved parts of bootcamp but there were times I tried to quit, but I must thank my senior drill instructor for telling me no. I return to ( Read more... )

I can't believe today that I didn't know her and Nate were together, I thought she was single from Mike and not with Nate yet. I thought she was between guys for the time being. She should have told me because I wasn't aware of anything, it was never out there that she was with Nate. I wonder if they broke up? No idea. It's time for me to burn ( Read more... )

If I died tomorrow, you would never ever get a chance to see ( Read more... )

She fucked up again...She can say goodbye to me now, cuz after tonight, with holding the truth from me again, pretty much lying, and telling me a million things that I know aren't true because she once again proved everyone right...Fuck you and goodbye. After further thought and talking with Nate about her cheating on him again...I've come to the ( Read more... )

I'm considering smoking again, it's easier to quit than her. The cigarettes don't come into my life, unless I go and buy them...They don't call my phone. It's just hard, but she does have a right to be heard out.

Been pretty board, trying my hardest to remember these general orders i'm up to 8 out of the 11 woo fucking hoo I guess. Time isn't going by fast enough, the pain is still here and i'm avoiding it like hell, i'm afraid if it hits me i'm a gonner for sure. I know i'll die in bootcamp cuz I will refuse to give up, but yet i'll have this negative ( Read more... )

Exactly a week from now and I'll be at bootcamp. I'm starting to get this attitude for everyone I know who's actually around my age. And it sucks becasue the ones who really do care about me and want to come on the 3rd can't, cuz either they're away, like Duval being in the Navy, Gardy being in Florida and trying to work out his testing and such ( Read more... )

WHO THE FUCK DOES SHE GET OFF TELLING ME I DON'T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING ANYMORE ( Read more... )