Wow, so what new has happened, besides a Divorce, I slept with Karianne after the divorce to get back at Nate, she has a daughter, and I'm still lonely. I'm doing so much better, looking back on everything in life I'd do it all again, every ounce. I wouldn't change a thing but a few small details. I now see that maybe the marine corps isn't so ( Read more... )

wow...sitting here and i realized what this strange feeling hovering over me and slowly dragging me down is. i didnt realize what it was until it was too late however. it dragged me under like jaws did his first victim, a couple sharp stings and boom gone. my depression hit hard hit fast and didnt seem to show much mercy. i hit damn near rock ( Read more... )

been awhile since i have updated this journal 5 weeks to be close to exact...so much has happened but ill put that down when im not updating via cell phone. im cold because california is fucing cold at night right now. and im hungry because the chowhall is closed right now and im sore in many ways. mainly my achilles tendon has inflamed and as my ( Read more... )

bored...stressed out lonely and scared and why does this bring being in the mood out of me at the most awkward of times? lol...well heres the deal...i was supposed to ship out this january and go hme on the 13th for pre deployment leave? on monday it was brought to my attention that myself and 8 otherswould be transfered to a new unit. this unit ( Read more... )

I'm home for a couple days...it's good to be here. Since I've decided on this divorce i've need this time to heal, and talk to karianne about this thing. She wants this to keep going, fix our mistakes and make it work. I love her so much, but it's not that I don't love her enough to stay with her after she slept with someone else already 2 ( Read more... )

I graduated Friday the 13th from the school of infantry. On thursday the 12th during our graduation practice I was informed that I and 5 others in the main formation would be leading our formation out and be stepping forward to recieve an award. I later learned it was for High PFT(physical fitness test)score. I joined my Unit at San Mataeo base ( Read more... )

I'm here at a comic book store in Ocean side using the computer outta boredom. We're deciding if we want to go to the strip club and just chill and watch the shows or go back to the barracks and chill there. Anyway I got my job last week for Infantry. I'm an 0331 machine gunner. Yeah the most physically demanding job and I chose it. Our guns ( Read more... )

I'm here on Range 52 also known as School Of Infantry range. We're in the MCC center me and my liberty buddy checking our stuff out. I'm missing home and I think of Karianne quite often while i'm here. physical training is pretty rough here...Our packs are around 20 to 30 pounds heavier, and our flak jackets are killer. They aren't those thick ( Read more... )

This is a song from a band called All Time Low the song is called Coffee Shop Soundtrack ( Read more... )

I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me...I feel so disgusting and lazy and horrible. No PT has me feeling fat and ugly and nasty, so I hit the punching bag now and then but it's not the same, i'm not swinging at a human being behind a pad like at MCRD. I'm not trying to hurt that person behind the pad like I was in bootcamp. I'm not being ( Read more... )