i spent the last two nights sleeping in his bed. & the last 2 mornings cleaning my teeth with my toothbrush that lives in his bathroom ( Read more... )

i'm sick of secrets. i'm sick of lieing. i'm sick of wanting to share my stories & having to bite my tongue ( Read more... )

this morning when shez didn't get out of bed and somebody went to wake her...they couldn't. she died in her sleep & nobody knows why.

a beautiful 18 year old ballerina...gone.

.

RIP

today was so fun. it wasn't like any other day together. i felt like we were just two kids. two careless kids with no pressures or worries. just us. being us. together ( Read more... )

hate is a very strong word & should be used with great caution.

.

i hate you.

today has been exciting ( Read more... )

i am so happy. so so so happy. happier than ever. well at least happy about this one thing. this one big big bigger than big thing that has weighed me down for the last what...four years ( Read more... )

it's funny when you break down all the little things that happen in 24 hours to create a day. how there's so many different things...happy things...sad things...and well...just plain weird things ( Read more... )

they were the doctors who said it was okay to leave his foot bleeding to death & his toe detached for as long as they did before they operated because he had really good blood flow.

...i wonder how they feel now...two weeks later having to tell him tonight that he's going to lose them because of the poor blood flow.

**** it!

oh yeah.

i got another promotion at work.

not that that is usually intersting to anyone else.