i
can't help but feel
if i had my way
i'd die
watch, listen
cry

maybe i don't want to work.  hopefully i can find a job where i can just sit on my ass and rake in dough.  only problem is you need money to make money.  and i need money.

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one ( Read more... )

for you, for love
eyes as deep as the universe
bring me to the brink of hallucination
damn you and the air you breathe
faking smiles is my only salvation
manifestation of hate, this is what you create

with a voice so dynamic as the wind
i forget who you are and what you do
damn you and the air you breathe
my heart frozen, encased within an igloo
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happiness is the cost of freedom ( Read more... )

the reason why i don't say 'no' is because i hate the word.  i hate hearing it.  i hate being told no.

growing up, i was always told to treat others as you would like to be treated.  at 21, i've come to realize that treating others the way you wanted to be treated doesn't work for shit.  it's exhausting.  constantly treating people well and not ( Read more... )

i feel sick.  during the course of not caring, i started caring again.  fuck that.  i don't care anymore.

i don't care.

help, i need somebody,
help, not just anybody,
help, you know i need someone,
help.

this is stupid.  i'm bored.  bored with everything.  i need something new.  something exciting.  something i haven't seen before, something i have yet to experience.  maybe all i need is a vacation. something to reset and refresh my senses.

the frequency never seems ( Read more... )

talkers always talk.  walkers always walk.

i'm an angry person.  keep your distance and you'll never see me loose my cool.

there are so many thoughts running through my head, its nauseating.  people, faces, places, treasures, castles, tassels, fungus, dying, frying..urgh ( Read more... )

i want sleep.  fuckin' sleep.  and i don't mean one of those shitty naps.  i want a restful sleep.  i want to sleep for hours upon hours until i can't sleep anymore.  i'm tired of being awake.  i'm tired of talking to people.  i'm tired of people.  i'm exhausted with life.  i don't know why i can't sleep.  i just fucking can't.  i just want to ( Read more... )