I am obese.

So I'm having a breakdown. This is what happens when you "recover." I was so fucking thin and beautiful and now I'm chubby again. Fuck fuck fuck. Fat, even. And gross. Anyway, I'm crying. I hate myself. I'm atrocious. Dont worry, I'm going to get back down so fast. This is not even ok. I'll keep posting progress pics as I go back down. Let me know ( Read more... )

God I'm depressed.

My issue is that I've forgotten what it feels like to be thin. I've forgotten what it feels like to only have 1/2 an inch of my thighs touching, for my ribs to show in my back, for my collarbone to be obnoxiously present.

I've forgotten and I can't seem to gain the motivation to remember.