I'm having self-image issues again. The biggest conflict as always is "girly" vs "tomboyish". I always liked the idea of being a tomboy because then I thought that would be a stronger and more confident perosnality than girly. But the tomboy doesn't wear skirts, doesn't like jewlery, dressses or makeup and has a short maybe spiky hairstyle. But I'm ( Read more... )

I have life insurance through my work, through a KoC policy my dad has on me and through AIL. I've wondered if I'm over-insured. They say you should leave enough behind to take care of your loved ones for 1 to 3 years, and its helpful if that includes funeral expenses. But don't leave a fortune unless you want them to live off it an dthen have to ( Read more... )

In the last decade I've worked on "correcting" my personality to have a more realistic perspective of the world. To be less naive. This was gradual and difficult. Then in the last 5 months I have moved from being a generally empathetic and emotionally kind person to a fairly angry and resentful one. Granted in the last 5 months there have been some ( Read more... )

2000 to 2010, what a messed up decade. A lot has happened, so much in my own life and in the rest of the world its too hard to keep track. I graduated from both High school and college. I've had two fiances, both with sever issues, one who has gotten past them and one who can have his d*** rot off for what he did to me but will never acknowledge. I ( Read more... )

...Oh my God its 2011 ( Read more... )

Growing up I had two perspectives that fought for dominance in my silly little head. 1. One day I would be a mature person, responsible in every way and she would do all the responsible adult things adults were supposed to do like exercise, eat right and act responsible. 2. Adults always looked back and regretted loosing their youth and sense of ( Read more... )

Mom wont be saying goodbye to Loki. Since I'm not asking her to take his body to turn over to the shelter she feels she's been through enough in the past few months without getting worked up on this little guy. I'll give that mom has been through some hell... but Loki and my ferret buddies. These are her grandbabies. The only ones she's getting ( Read more... )

My dear little Loki passed away this morning. Last night he was so weak he could not stand up. This morning, so weak he couldn't open his mouth for treats. We knew last night he was ready to cross the Rainbow Bridge, as they call the pathway to pet heaven.His big brother Taz, who passed away last May will be there to show him around. I hope they ( Read more... )

Mom, Dad, Latin Penguin and Teal Diamond all came by yesterday to celebrate Dad's b-day at our home (and to an extent Hentai's b-day). Hentai cooked a delicous dinner that was well recieved, I managed a cake that everyone enjoyed (despite it falling to pieces) and there was just enough wine between all of us to enjoy the evening but not over do it ( Read more... )

5 years. It took 5 years for us to start getting this right, but we are getting there. I took the day off and we enjoyed ourselves. I got the both of us a VIP membership to The Mike O'Meara show podcast which got us access to the bonus shows we've been wanting to hear. we went for a long walk, got a good lunch, we went out to Olive Garden for ( Read more... )