Comments | the_uncandy: Sigh.

the_uncandy

Sigh.

Jan 20, 2010 17:21

While waiting for my shower water to get hot, I imagined killing myself and then writing 'forgive me' on the wall of the shower in my blood. What's wrong with me?

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Forgive me for stating the obvious... mayamahal January 21 2010, 02:45:47 UTC

But that sounds like depression. Post-partum, even. Or maybe I'm just terrified but what you've just written and I'm looking for a treatable reason. @_@

Re: Forgive me for stating the obvious... stabeest January 21 2010, 07:41:19 UTC

I agree with this. I know you guys are struggling with finances right now, but if you can get a doctor to help with treatment, DO IT ( ... )

Re: Forgive me for stating the obvious... the_uncandy January 22 2010, 13:15:16 UTC

Sometimes I feel like I don't want her. Sometimes I want to leave her here with Jayson and just take off. I know what this is, but I don't have insurance and I don't have medicaid, and I pretty much have nowhere to turn. Living here is making it harder because my parenting is being tested by my in-law's, my ability to do what I want when I want is limited - to the point that I feel seventeen again - and my marriage is crumbling. Then there's the dog that shits in my room and eats my cat's shit, the cat that makes my cats scream and his, the brother-in-law who thinks the world revolves around him and that us living here is just a convenient way to get better electronics.. and a husband that isn't with me in the 'let's gtfo of here asap.'

Re: Forgive me for stating the obvious... mayamahal January 24 2010, 02:51:45 UTC

Okay, I didn't realize until just now that you were living with his folks. Did I miss that? How did that happen? Finances?
:(

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