wow.
i haven't written in this this in forever. like seriusly rforever. wow.
i was feeling thoughtful and felt like reading about all this shit i wrote about in here. oyyy. lets see.

1. im sick of smithtown...alread....and i've only been home a month
2. i wish i was a year older
3. i want something really good to happen
4. i want vb camp to be overwith already because that means tryouts are almost over
5. i wish we had a better coach

so its back to smithtown

i;m glad to be home. but there honestly were very few things that i really missed. im glad to have my dog and my best friend back. its nice to sleep in my own bed. i like knowing whats going on. too many foreign languages drives me crazy. i like that i can sort of drive again. but other then that id much rather be on the ( Read more... )

N0W.
01. is your hair up: mostly
02. is your phone right beside you: yes, but i dont know why.
03. do you have a bf/ gf: nopeeeee
04. do you miss someone: unfortunatly.
05. are you wearing makeup: yeah
06. are you wearing chapstick: of course.
07. are you cold: yes
08. are you tired: sort of
09. are you excited: god no.
10. are you watching t.v: nope
11. are ( Read more... )

i dont know how to fix this

and its honestly driving me insane

hahahhahahah HA HA HA AHAHA HAAH i found the best converastion ever. it was from June 7th last year.  Thats was during my previous male conflict and it is really funny. because  im getting all of this wonderful advice from a really good friend. and now thats becomming completely contraditced. i dont get it, if you say shit like that then dont you ( Read more... )

that was a really long time ago
and i said i was sorry. 
believe me?

how

am

i

supposed

to

compete

with

someone

who

likes god?  honestly.

WHAT AM I THINKING.

doctor. seriously. what the fuck ( Read more... )

sooooooooo im doing my bio test about three questions at a time. and inbetween that i take an overage a fifteen minute break. so at that rate i wont be done until 2:00 this morning. which wouldnt work out so well because id fail the test, get no sleep, be cranky tmoorrow and fail the ap exam in 16 FUCKING DAYS. killlllllllllllll me now.