Look what I found. A time capsule from a long thought forgotten era. So much has changed. So much has stayed the same. You play D&D now, you found love, you became a father. You found a tribe. You fucked up a lot. You succeeded a lot. You're happy. You're alive. You're older. You're smarter. You're more tired. But you're you.

You still listen to ( Read more... )

I wrote something. I fucking wrote something. it felt good. Just the beginnings of a script but it felt good. Feeling kind of alone lately. Don't know why. Miss being wanted. I think thats it more than anything. I don't feel like she wants/needs me. Thats sucky. Oh well. Small victories. Keep on keeping on ( Read more... )

It's always a little odd when you feel you are doing your best in to ensure a project goes well and you're not recieving the same amount of dedication or commitment from another person. Be it theater or work or even a relationship. So many fights or feelings of frustration arrive from this lack of equivalency in trying. You just want to shake the ( Read more... )

Wow...its been a while hasn't it. I feel like I managed to find some long lost time capsule buried in the desert. Here I am. Hey, you remember when I used to write a lot? Do you remember how happy I was because of it. I should get back to that. I need a place. One tiny room at the back of my mind. Someplace to store the fears triumphs and ( Read more... )

I've never really felt this down on myself. Ever...Ever Ever. I'm worried

set forward with a flick of the wrist. Waiting for changes in myself that break upon a sea of foam. Taking direction was never my strong suit, but you know that. Look forward to amber sunsets, a starlit night where I'm comfortable in my own skin. Scream...just scream if it makes it better. Listen to music so loud you hope the car fills with night ( Read more... )

I tried using an alarm clock for a while. One of the old fashioned ones that ran on annoyance and double a batteries. I liked it, because like me, it was reliable and unconventional. It lasted all of 1 night and then mysteriously dissapeared. In its place was a pile of parts that could vaguely resemble the inner working of an alarm clock with one ( Read more... )

Confusing like a jackhammer on jello when you walk away; casually remembering the kiss and first hello of something new, a love known more fully with each line of poetry each thrown away sigh, (The sighs get to me. Each one, Every one a song within itself. It stokes the fire.) I'll wait. For waiting is all thats left for me to do. I'll watch the ( Read more... )

Concentrate on this eye winking stretch of time ( Read more... )

I wish I didn't care so much.