Today I went over to Amanda's house before the last LOTR showing and she promptly fell asleep on the sofa for about twenty minutes. It didn't bother me, but all I could do was try not to wake her up and hear in my head over and over again, "I'll put a spell on you/you'll fall asleep when I put a spell on you/and when I wake you I'll be the first ( Read more... )

Eventually I'm going to stop being surprised every time shit like this happens. We were just supposed to meet with Lauren to catch up because she's been away at college and is back for the summer. So around 2 I started trying to get in touch with Amanda just to remind her of our plans. Around four I gave her a call and took a shower when she didn't ( Read more... )

How do you get out of ruts like this? I push it to the back of my mind during the day, in front of my parents and the people I work with, since those are the only people I ever see anymore. But even at work, I feel a blazing incompetence that everyone probably notices every time I do something wrong. My boss is still nice to me, even though I am ( Read more... )

So, feelgood feminist ego protection aside...the fact remains that I am 20 years old and still wholly a virgin. I mean to an extreme degree. I mean I have never even had someone else's tongue inside my mouth ( Read more... )

Well at least now I know my feelings are not one-sided. Today Elisabeth and Amanda were supposed to hang out, but upon informing her that Charlie and I would be there too, Elisabeth told Amanda she had a project to work on and if she wound up with any free time THEN she'd come over. Because apparently she was planning on playing Tales of Symphonia ( Read more... )

It was basically just decided that I will never be a teacher and I should find a full time job so I can help pay bills ( Read more... )

I just spent the past 30 or so hours in complete bliss ( Read more... )

I don't even use mine, but I had the misfortune of hearing Amanda say that while she's up north she'll still be posting on Twitter. I told her via Twitter that I had finished her badges for the next YouTube layout, and she replied, and she started following me even though I delete my posts when I don't need them anymore. I haven't followed her ( Read more... )

So she's up north with her cousin for a couple weeks, and I'm not exactly dying but I miss her. And I want to ask her how it's going, if she's having fun, what all has been happening, but I know as soon as she says her cousin's name I'm going to wish I never asked. I guess that's really the only thing about her absence that's hard. I told her to be ( Read more... )

I suppose I should get a grip. Of sorts ( Read more... )