I am argurably the happiest I've ever been. Also, the fattest. These two generally contradict each other, however, considering my circumstances I can deal with it. I have found the man I want to marry. I am now complete ( Read more... )

Lately, my dreams have been more feeling than image or action. Usually I'm with someone. He has broad shoulders but no face. We don't speak but I know I care deeply about him.  I feel loved and intensely happy but when I wake up, I can't describe what happened or with who.  Reality seems to be dragging on when I spend my days wishing I were asleep ( Read more... )

I tell myself that every freckle is a lesson learned.
A time when I should have died but lived, 
Said words that ought to be forgotten, 
And loved much too freely.
They come steadily in time, like a graying hair or a fading smile.
As it does, life moves too fast, 
And it's only when you stop and look do you realize they're there.

Count them, count them ( Read more... )

My best friend brought a new person into the world today.

Life is so fucking crazy.

---We parted much too soon, I know but that's how it goes. There's someone better out there for you and me.---

Finally. I get what I want. And I don't want it anymore. It's a letdown but at the same time, it's so good knowing I'm finally in control. Ball is in my fucking court.

you move like I want to
to see like your eyes do
we are downstairs where
no one can see
new life break away
tonight I feel like more
tonight I
you make the water warm
you taste foreign
and I know you can see
the cord break away
cause tonight I feel like more
tonight I feel like more
tonight I feel
feel like more
you breathed
then you stopped
I ( Read more... )

I am torn. I missed Loveland. Now I'm back I miss Durango. The people, the sights, the smells. The gas station attendant who sings us songs, my professors, laying in the quad, tokin' to Korn. Even the CUB food. Okay, well not really ( Read more... )

2 years today ( Read more... )

they wouldn't shut the fuck up ( Read more... )

I had a stoned-out-of-my-mind epiphany last night ( Read more... )