So, Beth has been left... again. I really don't understand why this happens to me. I have a great personality. I am great in relationships. I'm not terribly horrific in the looks department. I'm not controlling in the least. I get along with everyone, so friends and parentals are usually never a problem. How can I treat Rich better than he's ever ( Read more... )

YOU KNOW, YOU'RE UGLY WHEN YOU'RE ANGRY.

I am more unhappy right now than I have been in years. I feel useless. I feel like a waste... a bum. I have no job. No school. Barely any money. I force myself to sleep in everyday, so I don't have to wake up. So I don't have to face another wasteful, empty day. Every morning, or afternoon I should say, I wake up to nothingness. I can't take this. ( Read more... )

I can't help but feel like a hypocrite. I'm angry... so angry with Alyssa and Pat for what is gonig on. ...But how can I be angry when I was in a similar situation? My choices then are the one thing I truely regret. I regret nothing in my life, except that. I was stupid and confused, and made horrible decisions. I can't stand to see Awwyson so ( Read more... )

And here I thought no one hated me ( Read more... )

o-kay I'm confused and awkward and stressed and a bit more confused ( Read more... )

I like women.

I still feel strange about the whole joe-bill-and other people thing that I highlighted in an earlier entry. Should I really be this willing to give up an oppotunity for a semi-relationship that seems to be at a standstill? I don't know what I want.

I just read Pj's last journal blog whatever you want to call it. It seemed so strange because I completely understood, which I haven't felt that in a while. I haven't felt that I've been able to completely understand another person or have one person completely understand me in so long. As I said, it seems so strange ( Read more... )

Beth Bilbrough ( Read more... )