I want to write about yesterday, but there is too much to say. It was a happy happiest day! Dan and I went to Berkeley and did stuff / nothing, then went to dinner and the Superbad screening. So great! All of it!

We went to the Botanical Gardens. We laid on the grass and sat by the pond and sat on a bench in the shade. Well, two benches in two ( Read more... )

I have been SO stressed lately.  Hopefully that will fade soon.  I don't even know the cause, but it's been pretty bad.  Plus Erin is gone and Katie and Shana have lots of things to do and Dan is not here and it's just I miss having all of them around me all the time.  I got Monday off of work yay.  I called everyone on the list and nobody could do ( Read more... )

Everyone is all worried that I black out every time I stand up.  And that sometimes I might pass out.  But I might not even pass out!  I'm not sure because I never know what is going on when I black out.  Now I have to go to the doctor tomorrow.  And now my dad is super mad at me.  And I think he sort of doesn't believe me? "I've never seen you do ( Read more... )

I am so not having it right now, so so so so so not.

Sometimes I wish I could write pretty, intellectual things, but mostly I wish I could be completely happy.  I think there is some sort of tension between those two desires, so I guess I need to make up my mind.  I am currently doing/being neither.  I'm dumb and depressing!  THAT is dumb and depressing ( Read more... )

I don't really believe in deleting things, but I do retract the last entry and regret being so(ooooooo) emotional (allllllllllllllll the time).  Except the part about Dan's letter because that really was the best letter ever.  Everrr like for real.  And the part about freckles / white skin because SERIOUSLY!  So white.  I am happy, but I feel ( Read more... )

It's not like I ask for everything, or maybe I do, but a ten minute or five minute warning would be nice.  Just so it's not as abrupt and so it feels less like I am a good filler for a boring evening, but not good by myself.  I got a nice letter from Dan that I really liked.  I went to the pool which I also really liked.  My face has gotten really ( Read more... )

"This long distance thing is hard ( Read more... )

Things are thingy.  Dan is still sick and I still want to see him, but I am not sure if he wants me to visit.  Work is still tiring and kids are still way too hyper, but I don't have a better job to go to.  One good thing is that I signed all the apartment stuff so I officially have a place to live next year.  Yay!  And the lease is perfect because ( Read more... )

This is going to seem silly, and it is.  And maybe ABC Family is not the best source of truth, but I am writing it anyway ( Read more... )