Dan has tonsillitis AND mono.  Oh no.  I feel like I should take care of him, but I am not near him at all.  Bad in many ways.  I guess we shouldn't kiss for a while, even though I think I'm mono-immune.  I hope he gets better really fast, but it's mono so I guess I just hope he gets better in, like, the next month or however long mono takes to go ( Read more... )

Oh my goodness.  I feel like such a screw up, but I'm trying to be calm and rational about it.  I'm not very good at the rationality thing.  But I guess that has some benefits.  Like um it makes my essays interesting sometimes.  Basically I have to study English because it is the only way to channel my insanity into something productive ( Read more... )

Silly me, I'm back in a good mood.  I maybe am going to Santa Rosa this weekend?  At least I AM going to the fair and I am seeing Dan and I'm so excited!!!  I'm going to get my face painted!  But maybe not a full mask, that seems like an embarrassing thing to do in front of someone I have a crush on.  Also I don't work Thursday or Friday which is ( Read more... )

I feel a little bit like throwing up.  I am doomed to like working with kids.  Those two things are completely separate.  I want dessert.  I WAS in a good mood after work, I am NOT anymore.

Summer is WAY too stressful.  I'm so confused by my job and my dad's instructions about how to handle my job.  I'm haunted by nightmares that I shouldn't be having and that only remind me of bad things that make me talk myself into a bad day and lots of doubt.  I need a morning job so that I can get up early and do something and then take a nap.  I ( Read more... )

I made cookies tonight and last night.  Tonight I ate like probably eight to ten cookies.  They were all disgusting because I messed up making cookies BOTH nights.  And I still ate them all.  I am just not going to eat tomorrow.  This is not healthy but I probably won't be hungry anyway.  I have got to stop this.  No more making cookies.  ( Read more... )

I just ate ice cream and it was SO delicious.  I forgot how much I LOVE ice cream.  I'm a little full.  But I was so hungry for dessert.  I'm weak.  Aside from the ice cream my eating today was pretty good.  And probably my dinner was a little unhealthy.  I might have to work evenings this summer and that sucks.  Oh well.  Um that's all, just ( Read more... )

Summary:
-My printer won't work and it is screwing up my plans.
-Long distance relationships are hard because they are lots of work and little reward (by that I mean little seeing your significant other).  And they are hard for other reasons.  Boys should be protectors and take charge, but can't be when you are far away.  Boys don't share as much ( Read more... )

I miss Dan and I feel bad because I am pretty sure I treat him poorly or make him feel bad by getting upset so much.  I want to see him.  Always like the day after we talk I realize what a bad person I am.  Anyway I might get an apartment today, I am just about to go to Berkeley.  And this weekend has been fun.  I really don't like my work though, ( Read more... )

I feel very happy right now so I'm not going to do anything to mess it up.  I'm going to eat eggs and draw and watch TV and exercise and call people after they get done with work.  Mmm I'm irresponsible I have no job.  I always feel like I should write a book (and get it published) because that would give me some sort of an edge in life.  Boop.  I ( Read more... )