I was so happy and I was looking at a picture of me and Dan in which we look really happy and I told him and somehow the conversation got twisted into one about how I am always so sad.  When somebody points out to me that I am always sooo sad, that just makes me really sad, not happy.  So now I'm just really sad.  I conclusion don't talk to me ( Read more... )

I just ate SO many graham crackers. WHY?  I ruined everything I had not eaten for and now I am fat again.  I am going to plan out my meals starting tomorrow and go to bed earlier or occupy myself somehow so that I stop eating all the time.  I am a little mad, but I guess it'll be alright once I stop eating so much starting tomorrow.  I did such a ( Read more... )

I hate my job and my house.  I don't want to spend every summer day crying because my job is inconvenient, unprofessional, and tiring and because my father still hasn't said one nice thing to anyone since last night.  Why did I even come home for the summer?

Oh my gosh is Dan not like the best boyfriend ever?  He is.  He just left but I got to see him ALLLLL weekend!  So great!  Um it's kind of sad because he just left and I am writing in my livejournal about how amazing he is, but seriously so amazing!  And he drew me the best picture ever to exist!  Wooooooooooow.  I just don't even have the words so ( Read more... )

I was happy but now I'm not.  The most ridiculous things make me angry or sad or upset and I know they are stupid but I can't help being upset.  It's so weird.  Logically I'm not upset but emotionally I usually always am.  I would eat because that makes me happy but almost every food makes me sick, so I can't eat.  I should just take pills.

I got a new swimsuit.  The top is wrap-around and it is blue (more teal).  It's really cute.  The only problems are ( Read more... )

Also it's weird how I wrote that happy entry and put it on friends-only but I leave the sad entries open so anyone can read.  Isn't that weird?  Yes, it is.  Hm.  I feel like I shouldn't do that.

I feel like I am going to throw up.  I've felt like this all day.  My tummy really hurts, but I ate ice cream and a brownie bite and dinner anyway.  Oh well.  I make many bad decisions, don't I?

Yesterday was a bad day.  I kept getting yelled at because I was doing things wrong.  I wasn't cleaning enough and then I made scrambled eggs and everyone knows that making breakfast for you and your sister is just asking for raised voices and mean words and all sorts of trouble.  Then my sister and Michelle left and Katie never showed up so I was ( Read more... )

Guess what!  My grades are actually decent this semester and I am SO excited!!!!  Except for my stupid mean mean mean mean mean mean mean Bible teacher who gave me a B+ and ruined everything I worked for.  But whatever other than that my grades actually were okay!!!!  Yay!  It's like I am not totally incompetent!  I am still really angry at my ( Read more... )