oy....3 years worth of emails, photos, and cards/letters. to look back and see it all go to waste is really disheartening. we were so in love and now to see us come so far from where we were....i'm just speechless. i find myself cringing as i try and retrace our steps. there must have been a peak and then a gradual decline into unhappiness.

Time ( Read more... )

I am not happy with the way my life is at the moment, not at all.

WHAT THE FUCK!

That seems to be the only thing I am able to say. Just, "what the fuck!" over and over again.  oh wait, here's a new one.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!

I'm like the plague.  

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I hung out with elizabeth today and it was fun. I'm so glad we're finally going to be living in the same city again let alone the same street. I really did miss her. Also, my cousin announced on her myspace that yes, she is pregnant. I believe she is married to. We were friends in kindergarten but we don't see or speak to any of her family but she ( Read more... )

When you're so lonely lying in bed
Night's closed it's eyes but you can't rest your head
Everyone's sleeping all through the house
You wish you could dream but forgot to somehow
Sing this lullaby to yourself
Sing this lullaby to yourself
And if you are waiting, waiting for me
Know I'll be home soon darling I guarantee
I'll be home Sunday just in one week
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wow,  i have had this journal for a mighty long time. i like to read through my past entries every once in awhile. most of the time i find them to be stupid, pathetic, and immature but for the first time i found them entertaining. it was like reading someone else's dumb teenage angst. now, don't get me wrong. i'm not above angst but i do think that ( Read more... )

i'm really glad that things are fixed between us and i hope that we get to hang out this weekend. that awkwardness was stupid and his fault. but whatever, i'm happy. i'm downloading the office "the dundies" episode right now so i am super content. super!


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why do  i always root for the affairs in movies? it kind of bothers me. i want them to happen and not end because "it's not right, blah blah blah". why can't it be right? i think sometimes it really is. yes, people get hurt but sometimes i believe it is for the better.  maybe even most of the time. why live a miserable, loveless life if you don 't ( Read more... )

i feel very stressed. i have an assignment to do and i do not know where to start. i could never be a journalist. i have to write about something that i consider to be a work of art. i believe i am writing about "about a boy" but i'm really not sure.

please. i don't really know what else to say but please.

things are not going well and i am really in a pickle. maybe i should just leave. pack up my stuff and get on a plane. or a train maybe. i don't really know what else to do.

on another note, i really miss debating which is better, cake or pie.