everything fit together puzzle piece over lapping maybe only one missing piece style within the last week.

i have a home. i live/love there, as well.

it's living.
congrats.

conversations resembling the one i'm having with steve are probably the largest factor in suicides.

haha. Lordy Lordy ( Read more... )

oh god-- Lent.
oh god-- Little Demon Children on Tuesday nights
oh god-- Shamrock Shakes
oh god-- Double Fillets
oh god-- Catholics
oh god-- McDonald's Union with Catholics
oh god-- my soul is yours.

This means defeat in the best way possible.
It was either this or heroin.
For 40 days, I give up sarcasm.

i'm happy to hear that everyone had an awesome day.

(sarcasm in regaurds to the complete lack of happiness on my friends page)

i fell apart today ( Read more... )

perhaps if i just accept that an evil force has overtaken my life for a period of time it will go away sooner. fighting it is doing no good, trying to make the best of things only makes things worse, i really, really want all the bad shit that keeps happening me to end. i'm begging. i've prayed sincerely, i've made amends with bad situations, ( Read more... )

i haven't learned to deel.

my mind set is that of drifting once again, i'm not locked down, i don't want to be here, i won't be. end of story.

i'm finally back.
in my head this time, too.
no drugs, depression, sarcasm has even lifted.
i'm straight faced and seeing things clearly.

after four years.

i feel really really good, and really really lame.