I'm laying in bed at 12:30 in the morning and I'm crying. I'm fucking crying. I'm starting to realize that I'm always going to be second best, always. I have no choice but to journal because if I say it outloud I'll burst into hysterical bawling and screaming. I watch everyone around me in their wonderful relationships. One of my closest ( Read more... )

it's been a while since my last post ( Read more... )

My goodbyes to all those near and dear to me ( Read more... )

because days come & go
but my feelings for you are forever.

i'm nervous, anxious, scared, hyper, ecstatic, frightened, excited, shaking, contemplative, drowning, floating and sinking all at the same time. but above all i'm HAPPY.

pee.ess. FIU finally posted their grades.
i still have over a 3.0 GPA, thank you jesus.
i though i was failing my anthropology of race & ethnicity class,
i got a C :)
i thought i failed psych
I got a B-
english
B
Speech
B+
Theatre
A :) woot.

somedays i feel like i shouldn't wake up.

sooo yesterday i vented to kayli, about david's excessive emo-ness and she's like "trust me, I know alllllll about that", because she's been putting up with his shit for two years. i went off about it like rambled for a good 20 minutes, but in the end it made me feel better to vent my anger to someone. yesterday he like leaves mid-conversation ( Read more... )

Starder2 (8:42:20 PM): i hate the way you make me a chonga ( Read more... )

apparently it's a good thing i never sleep ( Read more... )