I did something really fucking bad. I can't believe myself. And what's worse is that I WANT to feel terrible right now, but i mostly feel numb. The feelings I want to feel seem distant and just barely out of reach. Something is very wrong with my emotional state.

I'm not me anymore. Sometimes I feel myself slipping away.
Who have I become? I'm happier, but I'm not me.

Hello LJ! It's been a while. Lots of stuff happened to me the last few months. I stopped adding people to here. I don't want any of my new friends knowing about my past. I work at a really cool game company now. I work just shy of 60 hours a week. On top of that, I have been doing a lot of open mics. Between being at work from 8:30am-10pm and that ( Read more... )

Ugh, pissed off. Oh well.

What the hell. I'm not nearly as horny as I used to be.

It's strange. I feel less and less depressed as the minutes tick by. It's hard to not think about everything that happened the last couple days. But at the same time, I feel like I'm not obligated to represent myself as a clingy and depressed person anymore. It's as if cutting my ties to the past has somehow helped me let go of who I used to be ( Read more... )

Life is a strange and wonderful gift. There are times when it seems like everything is wrong. Sometimes it's hard to find hope, or motivation. But one thing I've learned is that as long as you keep pushing forward, new opportunities will reveal themselves. That is what I will hang on to.

Help.

Nicked my balls shaving. but aside from that, baby smooth. Feels nice. Feels goooooooood.

Lots of angry thoughts.