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[thedarknes148]

ooooooooh crap. i hate myself so much right now. why cant i just be someone else? i really dont understand how so many people can like me. i really dont. im the biggest bitch to ever walk the planet and im not even remotely attractive. god i suck. how can even one person like me, let alone 4562785745609867825478??? i really hate it when people like

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[spunkybrazilian]

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.....

[adnauseum]

How did you find my journal?
Through what avenues and or search options?
Good job on the report card...

[thedarknes148]

ummm, im not sure really. what did i write? sorry, i know im not much help, but i meet so many random people, i kind of lose track of who they are. oh, and were you being sarcastic about my report card? because i normally do much better, but i really slacked off during the last nine weeks. im not overly proud of it, but if you were serious, then thank you.

[adnauseum]

You wrote...
"how old are you? Do you live in jax, too?"

I was just curious as I was looking through your user info page and found only music and tea as common interests.

To answer your questions: I am older than you by quite a few years and yes.

[thedarknes148]

oh okay, i know what it is. i was looking for people that live near me, to meet new friends. im not sure exactly what i searched for, but it was probably either "florida" or "jacksonville". im sorry, i didnt mean to bother you or waste your time :)

[illidan92089]

What is wrong?

[thedarknes148]

i was being a bitch to kiah... and was seriously hating myself for it. so... yeah. thats mainly what was wrong. i just had a little temper tantrum, thats all.

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[xkalinax]

too many posts like this bud!!!!!!!!! (i've seen 2 so far)

you need not feel bad all the day!!!!!

im a hypocrite!!!! but i dont post it!!!!! friend!!!!! be appy hay!!!!! pleeeeaaasseeee!!!!!!!!

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[thedarknes148]

im a little better now, thank you for caring. you know what? you are so much easier... friends are so much easier than lovers. im loving you for being my friend. im sure none of that made sense, but... yeah. it did to me. i love you!!!

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Heh heh heh heh..so you think it's bad now?

[spyralxxx]

It only gets worse the older you get. You are what? 15? I am not trying to preach or anything or tell you how to live, but I have been there already and you sound just like me at your age. You are going to have some weird times ahead and you aren't going to know what you want to be, who your true friends are. You are going to be mad at the world because you don't yet know how to get what you want. You are going to discover the true meaning of complicated soon enough. Then around like 20 or so, it gets to be really fun and cool. If you are lucky you can stay that way and never get to be an old crusty bastard. Again, I am not trying to preach to you. I am just trying to let you know that there is far worse that you are going to have to deal with in your life. If you freak out this bad over whatever you have going on now, I would hate to see you in a few years. Again, I do not know what you are going through, but if it is what I think it is, don't sweat it. Now, I don't know you, but you replied to a post of mine and I just read some of

Re: Heh heh heh heh..so you think it's bad now?

[thedarknes148]

wow, you surprised me... well, yes im 15, 16 in a couple of months. and im not trying to say you wasted your time or anything, but i already know most of what you said. and no, you dont know what im going through but i appreciate it that you at least cared enough to comment. thank you for that. it really is a lot more complicated than what you must think, but im working on it. i just had a little temper tantrum, thats all. theyre rare, but they happen. it helps me get over... stuff. (yeah, that sounded really intelligent, i know ;)...) and i wouldnt go as far as to kill other people, maybe with the exception of two people. but id be much more likely to kill myself, but even that is unlikely. im too stubborn to just give up like that. well, thank you for commenting, and id love to email you back and forth if youd like. im always willing to meet new people :) my email is thedarkness148@aol.com. hope to be hearing from you soon!