I need to quit drinking the buzz is like being sea sick on an empty stomic

Day three of liquids and one cereal bar. It's fucking rough. Just ate my cereal bar. Hopefully my headache will clear up.

24 hour liquid fast complete!

165 Rock n roll

today was so epic fail. Although being 12 pounds lighter than my last post lightens my heart. today was still bad. I hate to barf. I... yeah... I hate you and me all of it.

And I'm back 192.8 today awake since 9am no food yet.

This:
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendID=90535988&blogid=453564048&page=3
Is making me cry.
I wanted to go puke up all I over drank tonight. That just made my head spin.

Who the hell hits a platu at 181????

So, I'm at this cross road again. One day about a year and a half ago I was here. I said to myself hey your life can go on in the awful depression and tedium it is or you can shove drug up your nose daily and drug yourself into your own reality. I probably still would if it wasn't for stupid laws ( Read more... )

My life is an endless roller coaster of emotion. It's not fun any more. Wheres the emergency stop button?