theres so much going on right now........and i just dont know what to think of it......plans.....ideas......thoughts........wants........needs.........im hoping that it all works out for the best........i really am........even though the plans are to do things correctly and follow through with a plan........a "roadmap"..........sometimes things ( Read more... )

things are going well right now........i just hope it stays that way......going to apply to a few jobs........see how that goes and stuff.........there are two that i am REALLY interested in.......the scheduling would work out great with everything else.......so.......hopefully this goes well....im off to work on my cover letter and stuff.......i ( Read more... )

all of this is so heavy...........and its too much for me............i thought i was going to be able to handle this........and.........its becoming obvious to me........that i cannot do it........why the fuck do i take on shit like this........story of my life........getting myself into fucked up situations cuz i think things are going to work out ( Read more... )

so.........i put myself on a rating site...some friend told me to do it......so i was like....fuck it....just did it to mess around.......and in less than an hour.......i made the top of the list out of hundreds of women.........reallllllllllllyyyyyyyyyy wierd....i went to do some stuff.....came back a while later....went to the site........and ( Read more... )

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene ( Read more... )

so i met my friends baby.......who sooooooooo didnt like me.......first moment she saw me she started crying......after her mom picked her up and stuff i tried talking to her again.......ok.......she started bawling again.....lol......poor baby.......she must be afraid of big ole latina women.......LOL....but she is the cutest thing.........the ( Read more... )

i know her pain.........i feel it too.......i have felt it before.........but i cant tell her.....we dont look into eachothers hearts like that.......we share something.........

the last few days were ok........other than a few bumps......one person was missing though that would have made everything complete.........thats sad........but i still appreciate it.........

its all the same........yet somehow different.........but really the same.........

...........the beat goes on.........la dee da dee da.......the beat goes on..........

this whole thing makes me sick........i dont think i can hold out.........ugh........gonna go look for some stomach medicine...........