Hmm... I guess this is payback for my own sins. But never have i imagined that it would smack me across the face as such whereby i have no choice but to accept. In a way i'm cornered? Threatened? Blackmailed? It would be hard for me to handle it and play along with what goes on but i do what i can and i pray to god to show me the way and pray that ( Read more... )

Things are picking up slightly. Working on things slowly. I know you can assure me as much as you can, but i can't help feeling this way. Seriously, which guy gets treated this way by his fiancee? You want me not be insecure, but what you are doing makes me feel insecure, all the question marks raised, and all the red lights appear. Hmm... Entahlah ( Read more... )

I miss you
I miss you so much it hurts
I miss you so much till it affects my health
Miss you, i hope you're doing well.. =(

I wonder, why does it seem to me that when all goes well in a relationship, something just has to mess up? Probably God's way of testing our limits, patience and faith in him i guess?

Your marriage may have been destroyed
Do not ( Read more... )

Finally after a long absence, you messaged me. Since you wish to give me the answer before the end of next week, then so be it. I guess this vid sums up how i feel pretty much right now. I'm never the type for these vid, after hearing so many times on TV, it never dawned upon me that I would be facing this situation.


Bila Cinta - Gio

Bila cinta kini
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I watched 7 Petala Cinta recently despite going through a rough time, i picked up some very beautiful lines from it.

Di antara 7 petala langit dan 7 petala bumi ada 7 petala cinta...

Wahai engkau yang telah melumpuhkan hatiku
Tiada yang lebih baik daripada pilihan Tuhan
Mungkin kebaikan itu bukan pada yang terpilih
Tetapi pada jalan yang Kau pilih
Semoga ( Read more... )

It seems to me, that my journey will end sooner than i had expected. I did all that i can ( Read more... )

Holy shit. Its been a while i logged onto LJ and suddenly it turned into some online shopping site? Sidetracking ( Read more... )

Seems like some people still read my journal... Interesting. Spoke to my mum before i left for work today, she told me... "takmo lambat2 kalau nak kawin, banyak cabaran dia". I know. Theres actually plenty of things i don't tell my parents really because i just feel that we're of different fre quencies plus i don't like to get into any ( Read more... )

Big changes in my life right now. Big career jump. Damn happy and couldn't be much happier. I can safely say i'm a double diploma holder right now. Next big thing is probably 2 years down the road. I'll take my degree once i'm settled down. Don't think kids would be an option just yet, but then again these things you can never know? I guess working ( Read more... )

Its been quite a while. Neglected. Gotta clear all the cobwebs off this LJ. I just wanna rant about this nightmare i had that woke me up quite abruptly in beads of sweat and tears running down my cheeks. Dear God, please don't let me see that day come at all. I don't want to see it happen at all. Losing you is not an option.