Once tagged, the assignment is to write a journal entry with six random facts about yourself ( Read more... )

I was unaware that my venting to no one on here was so damaging. I thought I had the right to vent. Especially when venting to no one is better than venting to someone who will have to react in some way. Of course, I just went back through a bunch of entries and found all sorts of notes I'd never seen...which, goes to show, people were reading all ( Read more... )

So, a lot has happened since my last entry, as always. I spent some time in San Francisco and fell in love with the landscape. I have to get there. I'm taking my time though, I like to feel safe when I can ( Read more... )

I came just short of my rent today at 97%. Well, it’s not due until tomorrow, and technically, her check can’t even go through until Monday. So I’m good. I made my goal of $300. Unfortunately, my goal should have been $400. More because of back rent and work uniform costs. I worked my ass off today. I hope my work noticed. I stood for a straight ( Read more... )

When I came to my parents place( beginning of March), I had a lot of agression still that I couldn't let go of. I wrote a few poem-ish entries that helped me relax enough to sleep. I never got angry with her, in a direct way, like I should have. It got back to me in the end ( Read more... )

I hate that I’m spending my time with someone who’d rather hang out with Krystal at 2 am running away from her life. I love someone so much who has such a sketchy understanding of the word. She can’t see why I’m concerned. She makes excuses one after another. I wish she’d just tell me she doesn’t want me to be her girlfriend.. That I’m not good ( Read more... )

Monica asked about the wrist thing today. I lied, kinda. She didn’t push. Why should she care anymore? Neither of them care. That’s all they had to do, was be the better part of my life as they had been for so long ( Read more... )

I told her I knew there’d be times I would be upset with her when she didn’t know how childish she was. Or inconsiderate. She couldn’t have any idea, even if I told her. She made a point last night about Krystal having to be home by 9, which would put her back here before then. Vanessa is not a friend. (And if Vanessa is not a friend, why does ( Read more... )

I love Tasha so much, but she worries me. I’m wondering if she knows that when you love someone, the way she seems to, attraction to other people isn’t a problem. If it is, then you would keep yourself out of those situations. She loves me, but she surrounds herself with girls she’s attracted to. I don’t want to see that look in her eyes when it’s ( Read more... )

I had a lot of stuff on my mind back when I was at Natasha's (in mid-February). I wrote quite a bit. So, I decided to type it up and stick in here. Reading it I know my problem wasn't being in love with someone who hadn't treated me right. It was more a problem of why I had convinced myself I was there because I was in love. The things I wrote ( Read more... )