i feel like a fuck up.

i just want to laugh and feel and give a damn about things and i feel this way with my best friend and hardly anyone else so ya can't wait to be out of the country, in the sun with only her.


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i can't wait to be in mexico, i can't wait for the next few months to pass by til summer. i love only working and not going to school at the same time. i want to get a grip on my anxiety but i feel pretty helpless with it. i miss being excited about something. i want to be creative and i want to get rid of a bunch of STUFF cluttering my life.

i have a headache from being miserable today. mitchell is so social and i have too much on my mind all the time. school is taking way too long.

new goal: trying to remove myself more from work. i'm way too invested. i need to focus that energy in other areas of my life to be truly happy.

i've never loved you the same after that.

i think for the first time ever i'm trying not to think of the future and just focusing on what is happening now. i don't need to constantly live in what is to come.

i feel relieved!

i have to kind of laugh at how miserable i am. what's the point of this?

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