I am hangin out with Mace tonight...sweet fun. Friday I stayed at Matts and yesterday I hung out with Hoff. I got kind of sick, though, and kept passing out on his bed and saying random things. I think I had that football flu thing. Kaylynn called me yesterday, and I have been trying to get ahold of her all damn day. I think shes avoiding my ( Read more... )

Its one of those nights, where I could write a huge entry about how I am changing, but I will spare you. I am in a good mood, but a sour mood, but a good one. I realized I keep forgetting to update my moods, but I am so excited there is actually music on my computer I could care less about how I feel, only whats going into my ears.

I just realized that I could play solitare, drink yerba mate, and listen to The Smiths for the rest of my life and die remotely happy. Remotely is plently enough for me sometimes.

I have to get an iPod. Im currently obsessed with The Doors, The Smiths, and the song Pimpin All Over the World. Day by day I step into the person who used to be, but I need to realize that I'm not him, Im a more grown up version of he. I love my beard, I cant wait until it fills in.

GIRLFRIEND IN A COMA ( Read more... )

You upset me, but then you befriend me.
I almost hate you, but you love me.
I am hopeless, you are full of hope.
I am a wreck, you are seamless.

Now I feel peace.

Thank you.

Sin City is a cool movie. I made 5 points in the football game. Im extremely tired and worn out, like usual. Life is switching gears on me, again. I am noticing lately I am alot more self centered than normal. Its sad, but I almost need it. I have left such large gaps within myself only I can begin to fill them. Poor Anna, Nick left for college ( Read more... )

I am so tired. I am exhausted. Coach called me today, and said he was installing running in practice. Couldnt have been much happier. Half days rock, and so does these nuggies Ima go eat.

Im at home when I should be at school. I called my mom and said "Call me in, im going half day" and normally I would hear "No, get up and go to school" instead I heard "Okay don't sleep too long". Soccer is stressing me out. We are terrible, and I could solve the problems. Coach refuses to listen to me when I tell him, as a team, we are not in ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning after having dreams about my friends killing me. Do I think so lowly of myself that even I think I am worth of death? I dont know where I keep getting off track, but its time to get ahold of myself. I look at myself in the mirror and consdier myself a living disappiontment, because I have no goals. I currently have ( Read more... )