i sat at my computer earlier today and all of a sudden i had the urge to go somewhere and so i did. i did not know exactly where that somewhere was but i wound up at the cemetery lying on the grass next to grandma's grave; i felt comfortable and safe there. i had never gone there alone and it has been years since i've gone there at all. i hope ( Read more... )

what kind of person leaves a school event on a friday night and finds himself sobbing uncontrollably like a baby for no apparent reason and not knowing where to go? why, me of course. i'm telling you i think this year i have outdone myself as far as depression goes. i mean, out of all the places in the world to drive to, i found myself parked and ( Read more... )

it's back...only this time it's a little earlier than expected. with fall/winter comes this massive depression that overcomes me, and i'm not entirely sure why, i do know though that it is currently in it's beginning stages. the thing that bewilders me is that this time of year also happens to be my most favorite, so in essence i love being sad; ( Read more... )

( fall 2006 class schedule )

well, well, well. i have no idea why i just typed that but oh well. since i last updated this thing, nothing too exciting has happened and that kind of disappoints me. anyway, school starts up again in just a few days and i'm not sure how i feel about that. on one hand i'm ready for a fresh semester but on the other, i don't want to do homework ( Read more... )

i think love lives would be much easier if we each came with a switch so we can turn our hearts on when we want to love and off when we do not. although, i think some people are already capable of such...minus the switch. sigh.

me + three clubs + 1 kamikaze = talking about "real people" and how it feels to hug them.

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