Spending each day ( Read more... )

So yesterday I went to see Mr. Farrell, the counselor who was commissioned for me due to his flexible hours.  He doesn’t seem too bad.  We talked a little about things.  I think he may feel that the core of my issues are rooted in my past.  Could it be that simple?  I have my doubts, but I can’t exactly be sure either.  I’m confused enough as it is ( Read more... )

So, since my therapist requested that I journal, I've only successfully done so once.  There seems to always be so much crap going on.  I can't keep a clear train of thought.  This weekend, I was in emotional turmoil, but once again, I had to act like everything was fine.  If I didn't, certain key people would have gotten far too emotional.  I don' ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here at work, and it's barely 8:35a. Been here since 7.. feels like it should be 9:30a already. Kinda sucks. Oh well... In other news, I found out that no one can take any money from me from the net. Makes me feel a little more at ease. Now I have to deal with this yokel from Arkansas. Yay. Finally finished that call. I've been ( Read more... )

Sometimes I can't help but feel bitter about the fact that some people just have it way too easy. I hardly know what easy is.. I work hard for everything I have and I like a lot of things. Sure, that ends up with a result of me having a few key things and being more stressed out than I probably need to be in the end, but that is how it goes. I ( Read more... )

So like it says.. I'm at work. This time I'm at that job that I was mentioning back in October though. I'm really lax when it comes to updating this damn thing, aren't I? Oh well, I guess.. like I've been telling everyone lately.. "Fuck 'em if they can't take a joke." Other than that, I've been waking up at 5-5:40 to go to work for 6am. Then I ( Read more... )

So.. as we all know, Wayne lives in San Marcos, and goes to School in Austin. Also works at the Mall at the information desk, in Austin. Well, things are starting to change, now. I start training for my new job on Monday. It's an inbound call center providing technical support over the phone for different ISPs. Nothing glamorous, but it does ( Read more... )

Wow. It's amazing how much this place really sucks. Stupid people arguing thinking they know more than me. Makes me want to smack them. This is my job. My job is my pride. I am going to do everything in my power to know that I am the most knowledgable about anything that I do "professionally." Why? Because I have to be the best. I don't ( Read more... )

It's odd that the things I like to do, I also hate to do. Like I just got done working on my car, but I hate working on cars. I like helping people, but I hate helping people. It's so strange in all. Things should be easier.. Just did a full tune up on my car, though. Should make me feel a lot better in all. Can't help but wish things were ( Read more... )

I really let this thing go. No updates. No nothing. I've been busy as hell.. japanese, economics, soon government, and ushistory. Not really looking forward to it, but it needs to be done. I need to get on in my life and find something worth my time. Right now, all I have is a bunch of shit that isn't conducive to my well being or my ( Read more... )