i don't know what to say anymore. its just... things aren't the same anymore and i don't know if they ever will be. I don't want to answer my phone anymore, i don't want to go out anymore, i don't want to go to school anymore, just nothing. stay home- sleep. they're all leaving, i'm still an au pair making 2,50 an hour, i still don't have ( Read more... )

i cannot go out every night of the week. i just cannot do it. sometimes i need veronica time. not au pair time, not roel time, not drug time, not drinking time...just me time. that might be cleaning, hygeiene, reading, excercise, homework, or whatever...i just need some time to think sometimes! eesh...i love everyone and i want to see them as much ( Read more... )

so i cut it all off. my long red hair is no more. gone. my hair is now so short i have to put gel in it or i have massive bedhead in the morning. it's so short i cannot put it in a ponytail.

...i love it :-)

Wal-Mart monkey biz ( Read more... )

the day of, vanessa, the new au pair, and i went to amsterdam to meet my friend laurens at anton's houseboat. it was really nice to see that area of amsterdam- i'd never been there before and vanessa found it weird that someone could live on a boat and love it. but this one was really nice. anton decorated it with lots of beautiful art, richly ( Read more... )

the discovery channel has this program on right now about a possible pandemic outbreak- i've seen it already, but keep watching because they have this narrator on that sounds like the guy from unsolved mysteries ( Read more... )

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awakenings drumcode was really nice. I love the sound in the westergasfabriek. it really was as good as everyone told me it would be ( Read more... )

- i got the package, mom:-) thanks for the poster too, the HP thing didn't quite hit as big here as i thought it would, i'm like drooling when i go past book stores becuase i want to just go in and get a peak at the #6. do you have it yet? it just came out here in dutch... i will call you soon ( Read more... )

BIG WHITE LATE TOUR BUS DON'T BRING DRINKS ONBOARD ESPECIALLY NO DRINKS WITH GHB BECAUSE BELGIUM ISN'T SO NICE TO DRUGS AS HOLLAND THE GUY FROM 2 YEARS AGL MUST SERVE 18 YEARS WHY DON'T YOU BUY SOME MUNTJES AND LET ME SERVE YOU SOME DRINKS FOR THE RIDE SO YOU CAN WATCH THE PEOPLE TRY TO USE THE BUS RESTROOM WHILE THE BUS IS STILL IN MOTION OR YOU ( Read more... )