So I'm watching the Kitchen Nightmare's Mojito episode.  It's an episode where the husband and wife bought the restaurant together shortly after getting married, but now their relationship is being ruined from all the fighting between the two.  Apparently, they have been separated for two years and live in different apartments.  Don't know why I'm ( Read more... )

It's funny to see how few friendsI really have.  Darin knew that I was going through this shit, but I haven't heard back from him since the day of the party.  Even though he said "I'll talk to you later."  I've posted a few emo things on my AIM as a cowardly way of trying to get some attention.  Funny how I'm on approximately 500 people's friends ( Read more... )

My heart feels so heavy right now.  I want to sleep, but that just means I will be up earlier.  I just want to be held by you right now, Christine ( Read more... )

It's amusing to think that when we first entered our relationship that she was clingy and at points made me push her away and is partially due to our first break up.  The rolls are reversed now.  It kills me that she doesn't reply to my IM's anymore right away.  It's all because we aren't in a relationship now, which I realize is very unrealistic ( Read more... )

Hers:
    http://animoto.com/play/hJxWTTIhXoMjrabG2wwG9A

Mine:
    http://animoto.com/play/fDqU22DYvJBOPkqIMS6U8Q

I have been trying to edit these posts to add more and not spam people's friends lists because I did not realize how many people still used these and on top of that still had me friended.

I just remembered I use to save all our ( Read more... )

I realize a lot of the error in my ways and without this break up I would have continued the cycle and insensitive.  I want to apologize to her for all the things I have done to her.  For the most part I have apologized and she said to stop apologizing, but I can't.  I distinctly remember leaving Davis with my cousin.  She just stood there seeing ( Read more... )

Since the break up.

Thursday night, 3/4/10, I bought us In-N-Out after drinking some mojito's.  I ate some fries after our conversation.

*I can't bare to watch the Kitchen Nightmare's episode titled Mojito's because it reminds me of that night and I cannot see myself eating at In-N-Out anytime soon, thought I didn't eat much.

Friday, 3/5/10, I drank ( Read more... )

on how pathetic my life is.  The only reason I get on facebook is to look her up and it fucking kills me to look at her pictures and see her smile.  I also get on to mafiawars.

My phone is fucking useless.  She was/is pretty much the only person I talk to and would probably be 3/4 of my call log.  I have the facebook application on my Iphone and ( Read more... )

I fucking started writing the story for the wrong reasons.  I was naive enough to think that if I did, she would realize how much I remembered and showed that I cared.  Ultimately she would get back together with me.  Sigh.  Pathetic.  It was still funny how when I spoke with her on the phone about the origins of our relationship.  There were ( Read more... )

Going to grab some food with Chris right now to get my mind off things.  I realized that I use to always be online with Christine.  Even when she lived with me would IM eachother.  Or we would leave the place, but we would always leaver our s/n's logged in.  Just a random thought as I was going to sign off AIM.