I'm watching the new episode of The Bad Girls Club, and the new girl Andrea just said something that really touched me.

"My eating disorder is an addiction. It's like my body is addicted to poison and I just keep using it to fuel the cycle. I just wonder why I can't be normal."

Aughhhh, why have my emotions been all over the place the last two days ( Read more... )

I’ve been having weird dreams lately that have been bringing up old memories and I think some things people have said lately set it off and upset me. 
I had a dream the other night about Nathan, and then someone the other day made a joke on my "LoveXcore" tattoo, and I couldn’t even express how much I had to hold in what I felt.  I seriously think ( Read more... )

 Another season is passing, and still, the same cycle is continuing. 
I guess I just need to embrace it, because that’s the only way things ever make any sense to me.
I’m tired of letting things spin out of control and get away from me.
I have to be the one in control of this, I can’t let it control me, although I know as much as I try, it’s always ( Read more... )

 Today has probably been one of my worst days in a while.  And it really has nothing to do with it being Valentine's Day.  Honestly, I couldn't really care less about that. 
It's just so hard to stay motivated when there are persistent obstacles being thrown in my way.  It's like I take one step forward, two steps back, and I trip over a hurdle ( Read more... )

 I need to get the fuck out of here. I don't care where I go, anywhere is better.
Running away from everything sounds so good, yet it wouldn't solve ALL my problems. Maybe just the ones that matter though.

I need to move out asap. I can't deal with this for much longer.
I'm going insane.
I'm about to have an anxiety attack.
Fuck my life.

 I'm alive.  Just so you know ( Read more... )

 This update is more for Randi than anyone else ( Read more... )

 I rarely use this thing anymore ( Read more... )

LIP TATTOOS!!!

mine: "Shut The Fuck Up"

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The past few weeks have been a chaotic emotional rollercoaster.
Last Thursday I was super stressed out about taking my mock state test at school, but I passed it.
The same night, Jocelen and I ventured to 4th Street Live and got to meet the Backstreet Boys at a charity event for the Make-A-Wish Foundation.  They were taking pictures of them in ( Read more... )