It's scary to put labels on things. Especially when it comes to your own mental health. But as my feelings, energy levels, motivation, and health continue to spiral downward it's difficult not to ( Read more... )

Why do we as humans seek others? What is it about man that he desires, nay, needs interaction in order to survive? I miss interaction. I miss you ( Read more... )

up..like an old napkin at a Chinese place. Used. Like a paper plate only to be discarded with the other more colorful party accouterments...that dress you loved, the satin, how it made you feel ( Read more... )

So much for posting my thoughts and such everyday...oh well. So, classes are going well. My Music theory teacher is superb. His teaching style is so very different,(read Socratic) and he is outrageously smart, and subtly sarcastic. I love him. Other then that, classes are cool. Nothing too terribly difficult I guess. Things with Nes are ( Read more... )

Well, I'm back in St. Cloud. Not exactly super excited for school exactly, which starts on Monday. It'll be nice to see everyone again, but not so nice to have so much less time. Emery has been good the last couple of days. Not much else to report I guess ( Read more... )

of life. So after a few hours of talking and yelling, and generally being pissed at each other, Nes and I are not exactly back to normal, but we're getting there. I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it honestly. On one hand, I'll be with Em and a gorgeous girl. But on the other hand, she's not "in love" with me and it shows, although she does ( Read more... )

So. As of right now, Vannessa and I are over. Completely over. She doesn't want to let me see Emery. She wants to move far away and change his name and not even let him know that I exist. That just can't happen. Legally it can't, and it just can't. I tried being polite, I made more than reasonable offers, but to no avail, and if she thinks she ( Read more... )

So. I need to think, to pray, and to meditate. Hard.

Just for today I will give thanks for my many blessings.
Just for today I will not worry.
Just for today I will not anger.
Just for today I will do my work honestly.
Just for today I will love and respect every living thing.
Just for today.

So usually I wouldn't post a link here. But anyone who like music needs to hear this
http://blog.wired.com/music/2008/04/a-scientific-at.html
go there. Listen.
That is all.

Hmm. So I haven't really touched this thing in years, but I've decided that I need to be writing things down for sanity's sake. My memory is doing wacky and strange things...so I guess this is for me as well as all of my loyal readers I've ignored for 119 weeks. wow. 119 weeks. That's a long time. I guess once I'm done here I should go read ( Read more... )