so i was talking to pat last night, about this whole situation of mine. and i realized that while what i have with josh may be boring and constant, it's also safe. josh knows about my defect, and sam doesn't. and i am sure that if i tell sam, even if he does like me right now, that would put an end to it very quickly. idk. i think i'll talk to cara ( Read more... )

what happened on the day of February 1, 2010 ( Read more... )

firstly and foremostly...megan my dearest friend give me advice of whatever you can give after you read this please and thank you. also, last night when i was in the grocery store, i saw a whole shelf of chip mates and started laughing. i took a picture with my cell phone because it reminded me of you lol ( Read more... )

shall now only be reserved for philisophical thoughts, or angry hate rants. if you want to keep this one on your list, keep it, if not you can delete it.

hey all. i'm going to make a new journal, because i feel this one is not private enuff. i don't want certain people reading my shit anymore. i have a list of who i have for sure decided will be on my new journal's friends list. if anyone else would like to be added, ask. if anyone who is on the list would not like to be added, let me know ( Read more... )

i hate it when you do ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING to people, and they betray you, and go ahead and stab you in the back with a knife. FOR NO REASON AT ALL. IT'S SO FUCKING GAY!!

we did see michael, cara, bri, and dave saturday night at the bowling alley when mark treated us and billy and spondo to bowling. michael was looking shaggy and run-down. he made eye contact with me twice. i still am curious as to what his motives were, though. am i, or was i, really that annoying? that he would create lies to keep me away? i guess ( Read more... )

last night i dreampt that jamie, dave, cara, michael, and me were all in a very large, hepped up version of maconaquah high school. i had made love to jamie in the dream, and for some reason, i started bleeding a lil when i went pee. school policy dictated that they had to give me something. but i told them it was probably just because i made love ( Read more... )

May 6, 2006 ( Read more... )

How many times has someone on your friends list posted about something and you were really confused, but you didn't want to ask because you knew you SHOULD know ( Read more... )