this was the worst halloween in a long time.
my eyes hurt from crying,
i'm tired but not sleepy if that makes any sense...
i think i'll just shut mt eyes and hope it all goes away..

wooooh a lil to much vodka.
ew gross i threw up.
a thanks to regi, susie, and allison yeah even though i felt as if the world was spining, i felt loved...thanks so much..

i hate the world...
i fucking hate epcc!
i dont think anyone understands how i feel...
:/

i'm soooo super glade i have what have, the best best friend in the world... never let me down not once. thats what makes this person so great...they listen to my dumb stupid crap and will make conversation just so i can get my mind off things... they seem to watch out for me... making sure i get for school and forcing to go to god school even if i ( Read more... )

might as well just say it, my great grandmother just died this afternoon, she is the third family member to die within a year. i dont know what to do i'm lost...i need direction i need my shoulder...i will all be ok but for now its not...

strike that three puppys...
the smallest has gone...poor little guy only lived a day and a half.. blossom looks so sad... in memory of puppy number four (not yet named)


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BLOSSOM HAD HER PUPPYS
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i'm all better now, i feel so much better than i did. now i'm just tired way to much homework i have fallen asleep reading twice woke up with a page glued to my face... well i am setting a goal my deadline is my 20th birthday. hopefully i get it done. i would be very disappointed if i dont get it done. i might ask for help. and if i do well i ( Read more... )

i have this sence of fear over me, i'm not sure why. i thought today as i waited for allison to get out of class, what it was that is giving me this horrid feeling. i thought pehaps my classes but no i'm doing fine, my family is doing good. i havent done anything wrong. so what is it that is making feel so bad. i guess i'll just have to wait and ( Read more... )

AH i need help in one class, you couldn't guess it if you tried, its music. i feel like such a loser that what ever my instructor says sounds like some other language.... allison (band girl) cool kid help me, i need it. exam coming up dont want to bomb it. psychology is so cool but so much reading, i also have a exam in that. ah exam after exam ( Read more... )