as life progresses, we tend to learn things that drive us forward, little little things ( Read more... )

everything is out of control.

no, everything is not out of control. its just that i am relizing how little i am in control.

i guess i should calm down, i think that would be a good idea.

life is a mess, but at least it keeps my attention.

P.S. the rollercoaster is at full speed now.

this is why i need to never leave my LJ alone for a while. i have sooo much to catch up on.

the shows were amazing. there was some good news, that i cant talk about yet. i am sorry to be so secretive as of late, but when everything comes to pass, all will know about everything, well most of it.

love love love to all.........

this is dean's brain ( Read more... )

yu know, now that i have made bad decsions, i am making some good ones as well... how bout not only did i shower and shave this morning, but i also did my hair, i recently got my eyebrows waxed, i am wearing a clean shirt, what in the hell am i doing now ( Read more... )

this is how i roll... if there are two decisions to make, it drives me up the wall. but there are moments in life that your not supposed to make the right decision. i have offically made the wrong decision. if this is bad, someone tell me. but you know what, my life is too amazing to always make the right decision. i am out of briliant things to ( Read more... )

man i wish i could cry sometimes...

it would be good to release...

maybe thats why people drink...

or maybe thats why God made alcohol...

i guess i am going to hell for that...

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but not for the things that i have done that matter...
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how to make someone feel better. that is the question. how to help them in a time of need. lord, give me permission to do something about this. i know that a lot of bad things could happen because if me helping, but that is all i want to do. if there is any way, any way at all. please, please give me the opertunity to do something about all of this ( Read more... )

today i got my first manicure/pedicure. man did i feel like a fag sitting there... but then i relized that i was taking steps to take care of myself... something that i have been meaning to do more offter, things like drinking more water, eating better, ect... and then i relized, wait - my aunt is paying for it all. who cares? not me, besides my ( Read more... )

sitting on my couch... $550 a month ( Read more... )