fin.
this will.
be
the.
end of the.
knifefighter.
for now.
im sure it will.
return.
winter.

i asked G-d two rather oddly phrased questions tonight.
for no reson.
out of nowhere.

"lord, what the fuck is happening to me"

"lord what the fuck is wrong"

I doubt he will answer that.

i wouldnt expect him to.
i dont know why im telling you this.
im usually not this profane or if i am i pretend not to be.
either way im sorry.

i am destined to be old and alone in a small house with a big porchin south carolina where my only friends will be my dog, my shotgun, and my trusty flask.
i will throw pebbles at the kids.
and i will be happy with this until one day i realise
that i wasted my life.
and that is when i will finally put my shotgun to good use.
sounds good doesnt it.

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lord you have made your answer clear.
but i do not want to accept it.
i think i know what must be done.
and it is hard for me to do.

things are a bit tough sometimes friends.
dont fret.

O' sorrowful world have you no joy?
where is your love hid?
do you abide in your sins,
or in the flesh?
rejoice for the lord out G-d has set us free.
rejoice.
all is well.
be love.

Come and whisper in my ear, "you're very pretty,dear" and
"it'll be alright." You're lying!
But I don't mind tonight.

So I wander and I wander
Your absence beating inside my chest
I try but I can't remember
The color of your eyes- just the shape of your dress!

bittersweet.
c'est la vie.
c'est bon mon ami.
c'est bon.

( like a bullet through a bottle. )

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i am happy.