"do the mess ( Read more... )

so around the 19th of oct im going to arizona. im not sure how long im going for but theres a chance i wont be coming back. this is why im confused. there's someone who recently came back into my life who had been gone for a while. i really dig this person, and for a few years have always wondered if they'd come back. i had recently given up ( Read more... )

so lemme tell you about my awesome weekend. so saturday i made the venture to nh hampshire to go apple picking with Shannon and her friends. it was a blast. we drove up to somewhere, i think berwick and got pumpkins i got a pretty big one, i decided to call him lester. then we stopped at thsi yard sale on the side fo the road, i got 8 records, ( Read more... )

yesterday i posted an entry about seeing my friend shannon. i didnt really express how happy i was to see her. i was really shy around her, i dont know why. i kinda alwasy feel weird around people i havent seen in a while, liek i know alot about this person but not much on thier current events, so i dont know where they are at in this period of ( Read more... )

So today i went to New Hampshire to see Shannon. i got there late, and she thought i wasnt gonna show, but luckily i still had Rose's number in my phone from when Shannon first got a hold of me. so called and got directions to dover, and met up with Shannon at store 24. i was so excited to see her i havent seen her in 3 years. so we went to her ( Read more... )

so today at work, i for the first time ever ate buffalo. i gotta say, delicious. it tasted like very tender steak, it was basted in teryaki, and served rare. i loved it, next i have to try buffalo burgers ( Read more... )

why whould you call me and tell me you have a new phone, i've spent the past month or so pretendign you dont exist why are you reminding me you do exist. i just dont know about you some times.

yeah, i deleted crystal's myspace, i admit, it was childish, and i apologized, cause i was drunk, and pretty pissed and depressed, its like finalazing a divorce, we were together for something like 3 years, but anyway, i deleted her myspace. so then a few days ago, she deleted mine, no big deal, exceptyou know now i have to make a new one. wrong ( Read more... )

dear marijuana ( Read more... )

i hate myself and what i've become. theres nothing left in this world for me, nothing to cherish, nothing left to love. the world is shit. my world is shit. every moment im alive is another day closer to death closer to death closer to death. the world mocks me. i love 2 things in life, a certain person and a certain drug, i need one or the ( Read more... )