fuck you. you stole my friend from me. it took a long time to get a friend liek that, a long time. and you coem sweeping in with your crazy and assume i must be trying to get into her pants, cause it's not like i just needed a friend to talk to about things or just wanted a human around who i didn tthnk was out to get me all the time, but oh no, ( Read more... )

ok so yeah. today was the second day of customer appreciation day at work, and there was a special guest. juggling TheLally. yeah, i got paid, overtime no less, juggling. i wasnt that great, i didnt make the newspapers, but i made some kids smile, and got to be an opening act for the magician. my boss seemed pleased with me, and i had alot of ( Read more... )

yeah so nh, bad ass. so mellow, i wasnt stressed out, i didnt feel like everyone was out to scam me, it was nice. so yeah went up sat drank around a fire pit. well a hibachi, as the neighbor was pissy about shan having an open pit fire, what a lame neighbor. i was really my scene, i like being outside. i dont like buildings very much, thier so ( Read more... )

yeah so, can you say awesome? i know i can, and had an awesome weekend. so up in nh is where it's at. like it was so relaxing, so mellow, for the first time in a while, i felt really happy. all that was missing was a hammock. shannon and kryss are just so laid back, and full of life. i was gonna write alot but then i got high and back to the ( Read more... )

well i m pretty sure me and crystal are over.  well at least im over her.  i've barely heard from her in like 2 weeks, so fuck it.  on the up side, hung out with kim last night and that was a blast.  i've missed her, she's pretty groovy.  yeah thats about all for now.  oh yeah i start at petco tommorow morning, not too shabby anyone want some free ( Read more... )

i think crystal is cheating on me. i dont really care. i dont really care about anything these days. not in the usual negative way, i just dont cae one way or another. im pretty happy. i dig my job, and im going to see a therpist tommorow. maybe one day things will get better, but till then fuck it. oh, also i set up a grow light in my room ( Read more... )

so yeah. looks like its gonna pan out like this: Arizona, not happening. 20 percent of this can be attributed to lack of funds, and the rest to i dotn want to run away again. so the plan is to call the army tomorrow, find some sort of employment, and maybe even make some compost. i dont think im going to move in wiht jay and brian and mike, ( Read more... )

why. why is it that when i now things are going bad, i make them worse? and what is happy. what makes you happy. i havent found anything that makes me happy in a while. arizona is seeming like more and more of a good idea. but will it make me happy, or will it just make me 2000 miles away from everyone i know. i dotn know anymore. i've been ( Read more... )

turns out trains sell out. like alot more than one would think. i mean shit its a fucking train.

who reads this thing. i know i do, and i know i read a few other peoples. but do you actually read this?