Were you drinking again? You need water and food. Actually, you probably need water and food regardless, especially if you're sick. *He holds out a chilled water bottle and a Twix. Yes, he was just carrying both of those with him at all times. Bolly's bag is significantly larger on the inside than the outside now. It's important to be prepared for things.*
I haven't been drinking. I started a new diet. [She takes both from him. She opens the Twix and stuffs it in her mouth and then drinks the water. She talks with her mouthful m, which she never does.] I think my body is reacting weird.
What are you dieting for? You don't eat enough as it is. You're an active athlete, you should be eating two thousand calories a day at least. And you gotta be nutritionally complete, too. Lots of fruit and vegetables and whole grains and lean proteins and healthy fats. Aunt Pasha ea- ate like five times as much as you, you know. And regularly, three times a day!
Is it like being anxious about something so you look at something and see the problems like they were actually there and happening but they are not there or happening and really the problem is just the worry in your head that you are ex- extolling? No, that's not it. Externalising. Yeah, externalising.
The problems look real to me. When I look at myself all I see is what's wrong. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror, it makes me sad and it makes me feel sick. And it makes me want to pull my hair out. I hate it.
Problems look real to me too. Everything gets cold and dark and crushing and I can't breathe. And I know it's not real when it's happening but it doesn't always help. And I pretend a lot. More than I tell anyone. So Slytherin won't turn on me. So my friends and family won't worry. Even though I know that's not healthy.
[She's not sure when she started crying but she wipes her face. She feels like she's dizzy and like she's going to throw up. She put her her down on her arms.] I understand that. Why you pretend. I worry about all of those things too
So. So, you gotta eat properly, Sylvie. Not eating properly makes you feel worse, which makes things look worse, which makes you worry more, which makes you not eat properly more, and then it just goes around and around and around and everything is spirally and- Y'know. Bad. *He digs more food out of his bag, apple, raisins, a sealed box of vegetable sticks.* Auggie forgets to eat sometimes, so I always carry snacks.
Sometimes you feel sick because you're not eating. Maybe just have some raisins? You can't go back to Slytherin like this. Do you wanna go to the hospital wing? Or, um. I could duplicate some cushions from the chairs and put them down in the stacks where nobody hardly ever goes for a bit?
Were you drinking again? You need water and food. Actually, you probably need water and food regardless, especially if you're sick. *He holds out a chilled water bottle and a Twix. Yes, he was just carrying both of those with him at all times. Bolly's bag is significantly larger on the inside than the outside now. It's important to be prepared for things.*
Reply
Reply
What are you dieting for? You don't eat enough as it is. You're an active athlete, you should be eating two thousand calories a day at least. And you gotta be nutritionally complete, too. Lots of fruit and vegetables and whole grains and lean proteins and healthy fats. Aunt Pasha ea- ate like five times as much as you, you know. And regularly, three times a day!
Reply
Reply
Is it like being anxious about something so you look at something and see the problems like they were actually there and happening but they are not there or happening and really the problem is just the worry in your head that you are ex- extolling? No, that's not it. Externalising. Yeah, externalising.
Reply
Reply
Problems look real to me too. Everything gets cold and dark and crushing and I can't breathe. And I know it's not real when it's happening but it doesn't always help. And I pretend a lot. More than I tell anyone. So Slytherin won't turn on me. So my friends and family won't worry. Even though I know that's not healthy.
Reply
Reply
So. So, you gotta eat properly, Sylvie. Not eating properly makes you feel worse, which makes things look worse, which makes you worry more, which makes you not eat properly more, and then it just goes around and around and around and everything is spirally and- Y'know. Bad. *He digs more food out of his bag, apple, raisins, a sealed box of vegetable sticks.* Auggie forgets to eat sometimes, so I always carry snacks.
Reply
Reply
Sometimes you feel sick because you're not eating. Maybe just have some raisins? You can't go back to Slytherin like this. Do you wanna go to the hospital wing? Or, um. I could duplicate some cushions from the chairs and put them down in the stacks where nobody hardly ever goes for a bit?
Reply
I don't want to go to the hospital wing. I'll....I'll take the raisins. I'll to eat them.
[She takes the raisins. She pops one in her mouth and chews it slowly.] I think I freaked out your brother earlier.
Reply
Yeah.
Reply
I'm sorry about that.
He was very nice. [She's not sure she's ever spoken to Auggie but he seemed very concerned about her.]
Reply
Auggie is very nice.
Reply
You're really nice to.
Thank you, for the raisins. And for understanding. I don't think anyone gets it. My brain is all fucked up, I think.
Reply
Leave a comment