today is a new day and the sun feels good on my back. i free wrote yesterday about two pages before i stopped myself. it seemed to be taking a redundant turn so i had to stop otherwise id be in the same deal as before. running in circles. when i went to work the other day i ran into two sets of regulars. one stayed till 11 and i left before ( Read more... )

its definitely been some time since talking in this but there has really been no need to do so. i am happy in the life i've chosen. things have been tough and even though sometimes it seems impossible things just seem to work themselves out. i recently talked to my boss who told me of the people he met in his life all doing good and making ( Read more... )

so now im so tired but gotta write in this thing i cant think of anything right now. i just read something that was diff for me to comprehend. so many things are comprimised in life its like we all have these assumptions and then something comes along that makes us want to do exactly what we say we arent gonna do. i think im gonna be a good dad ( Read more... )

here's a thought i just trusted someone enough to give them the ability to look at everything i bitch about today. i gave her the username for this journal. never thought about it. wish i gave it to her the day before though but i got booted off the comp. i might also get to do some smooth dancin :) depends on work but im gonna try. cold pizza ( Read more... )

and now i already have a good idea of what i want in a person after one conversation with this one. we talked for about 12 hours and all good conversation in the same. never found someone into so many things that i liked and now im so behind from giving them up for other girls that dont like them that its like im learning all over to like these ( Read more... )

now i have four to choose from and one on the way. life is so curved and twisted i just want one and their friends have to jump into the game. im thinking about backing off all and just waiting for the next one to come. come to think of it there is only one whom which i have things in common with and i dont know what to say.she is a female ( Read more... )

the same old thing as usual. just told the girl that i care about that i liked her and she seemed upset over it. there is no winning. its like i have to deal with a ton of fronts and then it begins to get old. her friend pulled me aside and told me that she liked me but was afraid to say it. but she never shuts up about her ex and always about ( Read more... )

confusion sets in as always, or did it never leave? this i will never know. why must we try to change others and ourselves to be together? im done. there are two who like me for the way that i am but i never even looked their way cause i found that the one right next to them was what i thought i wanted. now they are undecided about their lives ( Read more... )

just keep swimming just keep swimming swim swim. im finding things that i normally would not even give a chance to come easy to me and its a different feeling for me but im sure i will learn from it. country music, baseball, and specification of religion. i feel like im going to become a typical stereotype of the extroverted jackasses of the ( Read more... )

the time of enlightenment will soon come to me as i will have to decide what to do with my life. religion is beginning to play a big part of things as well as philosophy. spent two days in tuscon for work so i got a little road trip and some free HBO oh yeah... sorry for not getting together with misty and shane im still planning on it just been ( Read more... )