Justin broke up with me on the 12th ( Read more... )

So much has happened since the last post, most recenly Collin broke up with me...I don't know what to do...I've never loved anyone like this before...it hurts on a level that I've never known pain before and I'm terrified, the nights are the worst...I miss him so much, It's the most horrible feeling in the world...that's all...today was 10 months ( Read more... )

Has been very very long time since last update. Actually have new journal as to keep up to date with 'new' self. Must add one thing to the contents of this journal however. Am in love! Completely and totally in love. With...Collin! I know...we've been dating...heavily for 6 and a half months! ::sigh:: funny how things turned out...anywho... ( Read more... )

AM IN STATE OF COMPLETE AND TOTAL BLISS!!!

GAH AM SERIOUSLY PISSED...AM VERY UPSET, COLLEGE LIFE IS NOW RUINED!

Okay so things with Micheal have been going sooo great! You have no idea! I'm so like...gah! anywho our dates are so crazy, like the craziest things I've ever done in my life...let me give you and example...tonight! ...We're going to Homecoming at my high school to see/mock the band...I've officially deemed it "Homecoming-out 2003" because some ( Read more... )

OKay so hmm...where to start? So Wednesday...Micheal and I go to dinner and a movie...it was crazy, because we went to LR...which is like home turf right? Well it is for me, but he was infinately more comfortable..but I was so awkward and weird during dinner that I knew it was gonna be an awful date and he was gonna like hate me. But, when we ( Read more... )

Am in state of total and utter bliss!!! I've met, thanks to Linds, the most wonderful guy! His name...sigh....his name is Micheal...and he is WONDERFUL! I've known him like two days...since Sunday at 9...and already...(and this is way WAY out of my character...) I've made out with him twice, gone on one date, and have set up one for tomorrow ( Read more... )

OKay so I was wrong about Collin. He's not a jerk, he's a nice guy who's been helping me out with something. I'm changing my major. My parents will probably freak because my moms' a band director, and I'm on a music scholarship majoring in...you guessed it...music ed. So now...I'm gonna be a theater major. Hopefully. It'll start next semester ( Read more... )

GAH! Why am depressed on birthday? Could be not so many 'Happy Birthdays' as expected...or maybe is lack of boyfriend...or may be extreme depression over both concepts...GAH! I just hate this feeling! I'm losing my mind!!! I feel like dying...or crying...or just screaming...GAH! GAH! GAH! Why am alone? Am nice...semi-cute...smart...cute-in- ( Read more... )