"We all step into this world looking for our niche. We also all exit this world whether we found that niche or not. But what keeps us going from beginning to end, is what companions we make along the way. They hold us, care for us, and guide us to that next step for what is our destiny."      - dougie.

i know, its been awhile journal, but im back ( Read more... )

Journal 08/30:
When I started this class, I knew that I had a good level of writing going already. I knew that it was just going to be a level up from the high school level just by the complexity of what possiblities we have to write about. We are encouraged to write tougher papers and choose tougher subjects to argue our opinions on.  I think by ( Read more... )

there is blood on the floor.
you look at this man on the floor and wonder what happen.
the public only knows so much,
yet they knew so much about him.
the way he talked, walked, and though.
yet time and time again he was ignored.
and then one day, 
he was no more.
just another person in the morgue.
with parents questioning what happen.
and friends mouring a ( Read more... )

This may be the long awaited enty your looking for,
or it could be another time
but here it all goes.

I have totally taken a life change in the last month.
Im not that guy that does the same thing day in and day out.
i don't make plans anymore.
i don't make promises anymore, because i can never keep them
I quit working weekends, and it was the best thing ( Read more... )

god i love when people talk about me or something i did.
and i completely don't care anymore.
just sick of it.

My emotions have hit rock bottom.
i have seriously considered alot of bad things.
i have considered checking myself in.
i am seriously though of killing myself,
i have seriously considered alot of things.
i have hit rock bottom, and my lifestyle isn't helping either.
i am in that lifestyle of where i am doing my body alot of harm just to make me feel ( Read more... )

Oh by it has been a great while.

Things have been bad and good and just inbetween.
My emotional side is really fucked up right now and my brain just hurts to even think about it.
i really need a girlfriend, and i am not saying this to sound desprate, it is just bad right now.
I just need someone to be there someone like my last girlfriend. 
i can't ( Read more... )

I quitt my job.
i told larry that after may 31 i won't be able to work anymore.
i just lost interest in what i though was interesting.
i don't know.
maybe i am just sick of working til 10 everynight.
i don't know.
but now i am looking for a daytime job.
more like 7am -3pm.
so if you know of anyplace.
drop me a comment.

all it took last night was the three freinds that were here last night. 
Gopher, Sam and Corey.
that was all it took that made my 20 birthday the best day of my life,
and made me remember that even though times are rough right now for me.
that they are always going to be there for me.
thanks guys.

tonight was a wierd night ( Read more... )