my feelings have hit rock bottom this week.
I have been a mess ever since holloween,
and the only thing that may bring it back 
is my trip at the end of the month.
Its not that its the snowboarding with the friends,
it the thing where finally i get to see someone that we haved talked about for over a year.
but I don't know what is going on. 
She isn't ( Read more... )

Things have been going haywire since thanksgiving.
I get a laptop in december.
people have utterly decided to ignore me,
and ask my brother if they can hang out in my room while i am gone.
People don't care for my respect anymore.
I feel as though the world is shrinking and suffocating me as I go down.
and it doesn't help when i still have feelings for ( Read more... )

Everything is falling apart right now. 
And anything still hanging on is dangling by a touch.
My family is a complete mess right now. 
and it's not just my fault, it's my brother, my dad  and my mom.
I am completely upset that the first thanksgiving i get off from work, we are not going out to relatives for dinner.
We are all just doing are own thing.
I ( Read more... )

sigh....

It has been a rough couple of weeks and it will be for the next few months for as far I can see. I have overdrawn my checking account already and i don't even get my next paycheck til next week friday, after thanksgiving. Wow, thanksgiving already by next week.  My mood lately has just been shitty. I haven't really shown to much to my ( Read more... )

Car tomorrow. Yes that is right, I am getting a car tomorrow. I am pumped. I feel like a kindergarter who just got an extra 5 minutes to play in the sandbox.

oh i am so hippid, that i forgot what i was going to write in here.

Well I signed up for classes starting in January. Maybe this time i can do better.

Looking at  car on thursday.

December 26-30 is the snowboard trip, that is the date.

I went to Appleton tonight for a In the Face of War show that was stellar as hell. I wish i had enough money to buy their cds.

I watched Garden State last night and after watching it the second time, I realized what the story was about. And for some reason it kind of explains me. I am just trying to find myself right now. And maybe this town, this ( Read more... )

Well my mom is gone to Indy, and I am here. I wish i could have gone. But i get to go to milwaukee on sunday to pick her up and i may be bringing a friends.

Just have to get through the work week, especailly saturday  since it is sweetest day (known as the busiest day of the year, aside from valentines day, for a fine dining resturant.) Yay, not!

I ( Read more... )

Well last weeek went pretty smooth, I improved at work and more confident now about it. Hopefully this week goes better. 
I ordered a new ipod since my other one is broke,  and this one is bigger for more songs. SAWWEET.

thats all i have for now.

I have made my decision and it may not be the right one at this time, but after tomorrow night it will have to deal. The job is just not right for me, and i am just not qualified enough and I never should have taken it. I am going to tell larry tomorrow night that for my best interst and his, that it might be better to find someone more qualified ( Read more... )