the whole work thing...iv decided to just keep plugging along with that. just do my best no matter how terrible i am at it ( Read more... )

Today I am lacking in self-esteem. More so than I ever have before. I feel like a fraud, not cut out to do my job. I'm not good at it. Plus the fucking jigsaw puzzle I was just doing ran out of trial time because I took a walk. I had gotten almost the whole outline done ( Read more... )

1. I got my hair cut yesterday ( Read more... )

look what i made!

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im too hungry to be alive right now.
i want want want. i want to eat and go spend lots of money. i want stuff. anything.
i can't do this right now. it doesn't cost money and it doesn't taste like food.

"How would you like to be walking along a beach and fall into a pit? Falling into the pit might not be too bad. But, what if a hungry animal was waiting for you at the bottom? Things could go downhill very quickly ( Read more... )

so the other night was Jaysons birthday. yay Jayson! he went to mulligans because thats where Dan goes and they actually play decent music. well my ex Adam was there because hes a drunkard. i was at steak n shake with John when i got a call from Jayson that Adam had threatened him 3 times so far that night. i got pissed and went down there because ( Read more... )

im hanging out with John today just us for the first time in awhile. i think its going to be alot of fun. Jaysons going to a bar because at midnight he turns 21 and he gets to do what he loves legally. im feeling really down because now it feels like theres this gap between us. that hes going to have this bar/club life and then his life with me and ( Read more... )

I am an Intellectual


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