i am now 4 days into the year and possibly to be extended lease... i almost have everything the way i want it in my room, and we've made some very nice arrangements in the living room and kitchen. all in all the theme of this place is laziness. im updating from work so you'll see one of these whenever im working until we call comcast and get the ( Read more... )

i love this show bleach, and in a basic description, there is a spiritual world where there exists a militaristic system called soul society. in this society, there are 13 captains. these captains make all of the executive orders. of these thirteen, i have found my favorite character. mainly because he reminds me of me. on a site for bleach fans, ( Read more... )

i personally believe that there is a heaven and hell. if you dare to believe me enough i can tell you of actual spoken conversations with god, and visualizations i've had of hell. so i believe. now im shaky in my belief due to my use of free will. without free will, there can be no faith. without free will belief does not exist. nothing is surreal ( Read more... )

feelings and emotion just aren't me... so apathy... welcome back ( Read more... )

mom asked me what exactly i saw in a particular girl... in fact it was two girls... i couldnt answer her right away and i actually had to think about it... but eventually i did answer ( Read more... )

for a whole 2 seconds... so much for throwing stuff out ( Read more... )

instead of sept. 20 i'll be moving... monday. as in aug. 20. if anyone wishes to call me i suggest sometime in the near future because i won't have a phone for a few weeks. or just leave me messages online because im still a lazy ass that sits online all day at work. mom spoke with a coworker about my moving day... i heard this from the coworker ( Read more... )

i had forgotten exactly what i've been through in my lifetime until i read back on my own words as well as the words of those close to me. i enjoy having this journal. i've noticed the growth, maturity, and basic increase of my understanding towards my life. i've learned the secrets that i was lost in previously. it's difficult to release some of ( Read more... )

i've been here for 30 minutes and im already dead... in more ways than one ( Read more... )

after helping a guy off the street who walked here from bluefield, wv about 5 minutes ago, a thought came to me ( Read more... )