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walking in circles. will it ever end?

i've been acting senseless and juvenile lately ( Read more... )

i read this in mona's journal and silently answered in my head and it has made me realise just how different i am.

2 Years Ago, I:
1. tried to kill myself.
2. had red hair.
3. turned to self-mutilation to solve my problems
4. listened to linkin park
5. had more friends online than in real life

1 Year Ago, I: 1. had a GPA of about 2.5 ( Read more... )

the english language is odd.
i hate the way my family is. the way my mum drops out to the store at nine:forty-five at night. and the way my brother turns up his stupid music too loud (even though i play mine much louder)

i can't wait to get out of this place.

it's always a nice feeling when finals week comes to a close and you can sit at home alone at the computer, crank up your headphones and sing your lungs out while browsing the web-site of your favourite now dead television show laughing at all the memories of it when you were growing up. i calculated my GPA it's 3.45 but that's okay. granted, it is ( Read more... )

i don't know why i do this to myself. it's some festering need to find validity in my being. indulging over obsessive and likewise compulsive behaviour does me no good. and i know it doesn't. but it keeps persisting and i keep persisting. and i am left bursting at the seams ( Read more... )

yesterday was a good day. the first one in a long time.
it was bianca's birthday so corrine decided that she would actually come to church. in reality she just wanted her present.
but yeah. she got me Amélie. i was stuck at church for another hour so i wondered upstairs and there. was bill. we ended up going into the junior high room [which by the ( Read more... )

i've been constantly plagued with the idea that i come across as ridiculous as i seem. i was calculating out all my finals scores and stuff. and looking at my english, humanities, and drama grades i'm starting to wonder what the hell happened there? C, D, and F (not in that order.) the truth is, i know exactly what happened, i just don't want to ( Read more... )

we're doing a mock trial in english and i was scared of the rejection from my desired position (director) so i put it as my second choice so i could pretend i didn't really care. it's ironic how well people like me (myself included, of course) avoid getting into disappointing situations and in turn are still somehow hurt and disappointed in the ( Read more... )