Today they cut down my favorite tree on campus. At 2 they were just trimming the branches, by the time I got out of class at 5 the whole tree was gone. They left big chunks of the trunk and branches on the ground, and coming home to them felt like stumbling upon a murder scene. It just looked so violent, seeing a tree that Alex and I named and ( Read more... )

Aside from feeling like I'm having an AMI, things are going steadily. Saying things are going steadily really gives the false impression of control, but saying things are "good" would miss the mark ( Read more... )

"If anything could make me believe in god, it would be you, because it's too hard to believe that humans have evolved to be as loving and caring as you are."

I envy no one. This contented happiness goes marrow-deep.

It's snowing! and it isn't some half-assed hesistant snow. This is snow with some backbone and determination. The kind of snow the military would like. Bush + Cheney for eternity ( Read more... )

I could go into a lot of detail about Christmas, the lovely things that people were kind enough to give to me, how the food was, blah blah blah, but honestly? All I want to say is that I love my family (all faults included), I absolutely adore Alexander Evangelou (above and beyond adore), and Caitlin Vaughan is one of my all time favorite people ( ( Read more... )

My hands are clammy. Molly passed me a note today with all the possible contact information a human being can accumulate with instructions to utilize at least one of them t.i.d. I hope I don't need to. I'm nauseous. There is a marching band slowly beating my peristalsis in the opposite direction, and the drums savor heavily of dread. Heather is ( Read more... )

On an every-other-day basis I intend to scribble one thought or another here, and on an every-other-day basis I fail to do so. With the exception of today.
( an overdue rambling )

I should be finishing flash cards for tomorrows quiz. My mind isn't on hematology though. In fact my mind is worlds away from hematology ( Read more... )

I have been thinking a lot about death lately. Not death in some symbolic way, not in metaphors. This is not prompted by watching fall set in and pull leaves off of trees, although I'm sure in some way that contributes to it. My thoughts about death lately haven't been abstract or distant, they have been as close and as personal as possible. Not ( Read more... )

I fell in love with my patient on Wednesday. Sweetest old man ever. And he was funny too, such wonderful facial expressions. I had read in his chart that he had reported to one of the nurses that he had been feeling depressed lately. The next time I checked in on him I asked him about it. He told he that he was doing okay, mostly frusterated about ( Read more... )