Well 2022 was a thing. I can’t say it was all bad. Moved Snicky to a new beautiful place. Enjoyed some time with Chris. Played in the snow at our own house.

It’s just the biggest disappointment is obviously not getting pregnant and it’s hard to look past that. I really thought ivf would just immediately be the answer to our problems. I can’t ignore ( Read more... )

I feel a bit better after the follow up with the doctor. She thinks we should do a hysteroscopy, basically they’ll look inside my uterus and see if there’s any polyps, remove them if there are, and take a biopsy to check for endometritis. I kind of hope they find something? At least to just give us an answer. Otherwise there’s literally no reason ( Read more... )

Transfer #2 failed.

I kind of hope it’s not my worst fear coming true. That we’ll become those people who just have to give up because nothing works we don’t know why. I know that’s presumptuous but I mean. Most people get pregnant by now. Like 80% of people get pregnant by now.

Honestly, I’m not that upset. I had been super worried about our last ( Read more... )

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Chris’ family keeps asking if I like my job or find it interesting and I think they really want me to say it’s great and I love it. And the truth is a kind of hate it.

It’s nice I’m making money and it is the easiest job ever that I literally do from the comfort of my bed. But it’s so frustrating. It makes me miss what I used to do but also this ( Read more... )

November 11 is our transfer date for our last girl embryo. I have a baseline appointment on October 20, lining check November 4, then transfer.

I really hope it works this time. It’s a Friday, it’s 11/11/22 which my brother said is meaningful somehow lol.

I’ve been getting a little interested in witchcraft. Not spooky hexing Salem witch witchcraft. ( Read more... )

So our transfer failed.

I was hopeful but I kind of knew it was coming. Everyone usually gets pretty early positives and I was getting negatives even on day 7. I was a little crampy which happened last time I was pregnant so I thought maybe. But it’s pretty depressing how used to getting negatives I am. I expect them. I’m not surprised by them. It ( Read more... )

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I can’t wait for transfer. It’s so close. It feels like this is really gonna work. I so hope it does.

I can’t think about anything but this. It’s all that’s on my mind. I don’t know if it’s the hormones or the anxiety but I just can’t seem to devote time or thought to anything but this. I sleep most of the day. I have no desire to do anything or go ( Read more... )

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