I think it kind of still hasn’t hit me that we’re doing IVF. I’m sure it will at some point. Maybe when I start the injections, maybe when we do retrieval.

I never expected to be one of these people. It never even crossed my mind. I just always assumed when I was ready to have kids it would just happen like it seemed to happen for everyone I knew. ( Read more... )

Spent the last few days going back and forth if we wanted to do PGT. It’s preimplantation genetic testing, basically it tests for chromosomal abnormalities like Down syndrome and such. It also eliminates embryos that likely wouldn’t implant or would result in early miscarriage. It sounds like a no brainer, but it does have some risks. It’s not 100 ( Read more... )

So it’s official. We’re doing IVF.

Honestly, it’s a relief. I wish we could’ve just done it in the beginning. I think we’d be pregnant by now. I have high suspicions that I have a problem with my cervix given that my HSG was so difficult and the only time I know they were in the uterus for IUI it was painful like my HSG. I think the first two IUIs ( Read more... )

Well. We’re doing IVF.

We could do another IUI but I think we’re both just tired of the disappointment. After so many rounds of letrozole before we even did IUI and now three failed IUIs I think we’re just ready for a win. I want some answers personally and I think IVF will give us those. Maybe we find out my eggs are garbage for some reason. Who ( Read more... )

So yeah. Third IUI failed. I peed on the stick this morning but it gives me so much anxiety to wait for the result that I just left it in the bathroom and had Chris go look at it. I heard “gat-damn it” and knew what it said. But once again he’s trying to be really positive about the whole thing. Says it’ll happen one way or another.

If I’m being ( Read more... )

So I can test tomorrow. I have a blood test scheduled Wednesday but if a home test is negative I’m not driving all the way there just to get bad news.

I’m so, so worried it’ll be negative and we have to do ivf. I know our chances are better with ivf but it’s so incredibly expensive and honestly I’m worried it won’t work. I’m worried whatever is ( Read more... )

So this weekend was a whirlwind.

Mom got here Thursday night and we left Friday morning to go to Philadelphia for Greg and Mary’s wedding but we had to stop in Norfolk so I could get an ultrasound on day 10. Totally expected to see morning, but I had a 17mm follicle which is pretty big for so early on. I feel like it just keeps moving up. So they ( Read more... )

Yesterday was a good day.

Nothing particularly great happened, but I woke up and stretched a bit and just felt lighter than I have in a while. I was motivated, I was feeling positive. I got some crochet done and even felt brave enough to post it on the Facebook plant group. The small local one, but still. People seemed interested. Only one person ( Read more... )