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You'd Love Me
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My War
I'm not sure what nature wants with me. We've been battling for some time, and it's saved me from my own wrath in laziness many times despite this. Understandably, the wonders of technology are not appreciated by nature. Excessive force, directed sloppily, prematurely, selfishly. Subjectively. But technology isn't always opposed to nature, just ( Read more... ) -
A Nerdy Entry is Really Deserved
My first completely custom computer will be arriving in the mail in a few days, and I'm straight giddy. I've been running over parts and deals for a couple months now, scouring wide-eyed the piles of pages with the scrutiny and precision of a homeless seamstress, and optimization has at last been realised. For those that know what the hell I'm ( Read more... ) -
Blood flows where blood goes
Strangely enough, there's appeared a silver lining in my having to start taking pain meds; having tried a handful now, I've finally found one that doesn't obliterate my feeble appetite, and actually gives me a bit of the munchies. I'm looking forward to putting on a few pounds, though not for my brothers' sakes. For 23 years I've maintained ( Read more... ) -
A La Cuisine!
Anyone interested in participating in a modified version of Iron Chef, either competing, judging, filming, or narrating, is invited and encouraged to do so post all parties meeting and discussing said shindig. So, respond here, get with me, yell at Rudy, or poke a Berwick. Oh yea, Berwicks, you're down (right?). The later realization that the ( Read more... ) -
I am
I'm sorry that I must fall on someone, and that my quality of life must so greatly affect yours. I'm sorry that I say hurtful things when I'm hurting. My frustration with you is usually just misplaced hate of myself; no one deserves having to keep me alive. Atop all of this, I'm having to deal with the inevitability of an addiction to pain pills. ( Read more... ) -
Jacked and ready
My mood has been in the pits for quite some unknown time, and I'm sorry that some of you have been witness to the sad. It's funny though, what indirectly lifted my spirits a bit today; as cliche as it may be, it was realising what wasn't stolen from my (our) home last night. The losers didn't even get what they likely came for, which will not be ( Read more... ) -
Be bothered, but subtle.
Times of change are expected, but I plan to keep surviving and pressing for something new just the same. Complacence is a terrifying place to wander into. I'd like that people would more completely embrace their tastes, though not to the point where they can't change, but where they're able to comfortably voice what they don't like, and more ( Read more... ) -
Pick a subject
Too much drugs man, it's a bad scene. Every cocktail consists of at least pain killers and dxm; the rest are bonuses. My symptoms are atypical, making it difficult to determine my status and its direction, much less vocalizing it to those dealing with me. There are the body pains, which remain mild for now, as well as the congestion, which is odd. ( Read more... ) -
Cripple Chronicles: Issue 10, The Good Die Young
And I'm the best. I was diagnosed with Type 1 Spinal Muscular Atrophy, also known as Werdnigg-Hoffman Disease, at eight months old. My parents were told that I wouldn't live past two, and with good reason. Infantile onset (Type 1) is the most sever form of SMA, with the highest mortality rate, and the disease itself is the top inherited killer of ( Read more... )